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SadBlueLemon

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Nov 12, 2020
16
As the title implies I'll be taking SN in 24 hours, around midnight on Saturday, Oct 29. The hotel room is booked and I've taken my first dose of metoclopramide to prepare. I won't be able to document the event because I need to reset my phone just before I take the SN and so I won't have Internet access after that. I guess if I don't log in for a week after then you can assume it worked.

I'm posting this for 2 reasons. One, to maybe provide some information regarding the shelf-life of SN, and two, to maybe have some company in my last hours... as you can see by my post count, I'm not one for socializing and this site very much reflects me on the Internet as a whole as well as IRL. But if there are others also very close to their last moments then maybe share some thoughts and stuff...?

Now for the first reason. I came across this site many years ago, in 2019 or earlier. I learned about the SN method and purchased it in July 2020. Those of you who were on the site around spring/summer of that year will know that one of the main sources for SN (at least in the EU where I am) was a Polish guy selling on auction and arts/crafts sites. That's who I got it from. It arrived in July and so I've had it for little over 2 years. It's packaged in two plastic ziplock bags, looks exactly as it did when I got it, it has been kept at normal room temperature and has never been opened. The reason why I'm saying this is to perhaps provide some info on whether it'll still work as intended several years later. I know a lot of you research and debate this kind of stuff to all hell, lol, so now you can have another piece of information to gnaw on. Whether you'll believe me or not I don't know, I've seen so many goodbye threads posted by not-social-butterflies with low post counts like myself whose words have been doubted and who have been called attention whores and whatnot simply because they're lurkers and not posters. But I feel like I may not have found SN without this place or at least I wouldn't have found it in time to be able to purchase it with relative ease the way I was and I feel I owe some debt of thanks and so here's me repaying that in the form of providing as much information on using the substance as I can. There doesn't seem to be much talk or proof on using older SN, so maybe this will shed some light on the matter and help answer the questions of those in similar situations as me who are in possession of SN bought years ago.

And I'm sorry for the wall of text. Depression has killed my concentration so I wouldn't have read the entire post (and therefore it's OK if you didn't either) but if you did, props to you and thanks.
 
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October112021

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Oct 8, 2022
141
Good luck and goodbye, Mon amis.
 
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EmbraceNothingness

New Member
Oct 2, 2022
2
I hope you find what you're looking for
 
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lifeisadream

lifeisadream

One of life’s failures
Oct 3, 2022
172
Thanks for your post. Wishing you a peaceful exit & I hope you shine brightly on the other side ❤️
 
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SadBlueLemon

Member
Nov 12, 2020
16
Regarding the shelf life of SN, I would plan on doing the aquarium test or the blood test to confirm it still has active Nitrite. I'm sure it's fine if you never opened the package, but it wouldn't hurt for some peace of mind. Best of luck to you

Good advice. I just did the blood test and the blood drops turned chocolate brown immediately on contact with the SN. Based on what I've read this means it's good to go, right?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,704
Thank you for sharing the information. I wish you freedom from all suffering for when the time is right for you to leave this world.
 
NoLightRemains

NoLightRemains

I found my light again. Namu Amida Butsu
Sep 26, 2021
374
Good advice. I just did the blood test and the blood drops turned chocolate brown immediately on contact with the SN. Based on what I've read this means it's good to go, right?
Sounds right to me.
 
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Per Ardua Ad Astra

Per Ardua Ad Astra

Malpractice: NeuroDystrophy-Paralysis-Meds-Injured
Sep 27, 2022
3,638
Per ardua ad astra 💫🕊️🙏
 
Fl4u

Fl4u

Student
Oct 13, 2022
149
As the title implies I'll be taking SN in 24 hours, around midnight on Saturday, Oct 29. The hotel room is booked and I've taken my first dose of metoclopramide to prepare. I won't be able to document the event because I need to reset my phone just before I take the SN and so I won't have Internet access after that. I guess if I don't log in for a week after then you can assume it worked.

I'm posting this for 2 reasons. One, to maybe provide some information regarding the shelf-life of SN, and two, to maybe have some company in my last hours... as you can see by my post count, I'm not one for socializing and this site very much reflects me on the Internet as a whole as well as IRL. But if there are others also very close to their last moments then maybe share some thoughts and stuff...?

Now for the first reason. I came across this site many years ago, in 2019 or earlier. I learned about the SN method and purchased it in July 2020. Those of you who were on the site around spring/summer of that year will know that one of the main sources for SN (at least in the EU where I am) was a Polish guy selling on auction and arts/crafts sites. That's who I got it from. It arrived in July and so I've had it for little over 2 years. It's packaged in two plastic ziplock bags, looks exactly as it did when I got it, it has been kept at normal room temperature and has never been opened. The reason why I'm saying this is to perhaps provide some info on whether it'll still work as intended several years later. I know a lot of you research and debate this kind of stuff to all hell, lol, so now you can have another piece of information to gnaw on. Whether you'll believe me or not I don't know, I've seen so many goodbye threads posted by not-social-butterflies with low post counts like myself whose words have been doubted and who have been called attention whores and whatnot simply because they're lurkers and not posters. But I feel like I may not have found SN without this place or at least I wouldn't have found it in time to be able to purchase it with relative ease the way I was and I feel I owe some debt of thanks and so here's me repaying that in the form of providing as much information on using the substance as I can. There doesn't seem to be much talk or proof on using older SN, so maybe this will shed some light on the matter and help answer the questions of those in similar situations as me who are in possession of SN bought years ago.

And I'm sorry for the wall of text. Depression has killed my concentration so I wouldn't have read the entire post (and therefore it's OK if you didn't either) but if you did, props to you and thanks.
If you don't mind, can you message me your Polish source? I'm from Germany and could use one. I wish you all the best...
 
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SadBlueLemon

Member
Nov 12, 2020
16
If you don't mind, can you message me your Polish source? I'm from Germany and could use one. I wish you all the best...

Sorry, but he's no longer available. There was sort of a crackdown on the easy availability of SN on the auction site in 2020 and that source is no longer in operation AFAIK.
 
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StarlightDreamer

Infinity Weaver
Aug 2, 2022
111
Best of luck, friend. May we meet again, in a better life.
 
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SadBlueLemon

Member
Nov 12, 2020
16
I have about 9 hours to go.

I hate this. I hate that this is all that life had to offer me. I tried and worked so hard for a different outcome, but never got a chance. Never even got to become a person. I hate having to do this but it is the best option, I know it is. Better a horrible ending than endless horror. I gotta remember that.

I've wasted too much time as it is today, need to stop the self-pity, write a note, pack up my crap and head to the hotel.
 
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universe

Experienced
Jul 15, 2022
241
Better a horrible ending than endless horro
Your text is very touching, you seem to have suffered a lot, I wish you to find peace and that you no longer suffer. The fear of dying and the urgency of the situation, I know that. I send all my prayers. If you want to talk, you can send me a private message.
 
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jk9761

Experienced
Jul 25, 2022
289
Regarding the shelf life of SN, I would plan on doing the aquarium test or the blood test to confirm it still has active Nitrite. I'm sure it's fine if you never opened the package, but it wouldn't hurt for some peace of mind. Best of luck to you
aquarium test ? how do you do this test ?
 
Shivali

Shivali

Mage
Jun 9, 2022
560
May you find eternal peace . Farewell :heart:
 
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Sittichmutter

Student
Sep 16, 2021
164
Dear SadBlueLemon,
Depression is the cancer of soul. What a terrible disease. It distorts the mind, kills all the joy, brings so much pain and despair to people. I wish we had a better treatment. I wish I could bring love and peace to your soul.❤️
 
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Amnesiaisalloverme

Amnesiaisalloverme

My previous name here was 249___nnn
Oct 4, 2022
44
How r u still here?
 
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