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lkjhgfdsa1

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Apr 17, 2024
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I've been thinking about what my ideal method would be.
Honestly, everything is so violent-- and I'm just a girl.

My ideal method would be to take a nice hot bath, take some pills and maybe a drink, and just slowly drift off.
However, I know this is super unreliable and highly likely not to be successful... so there is not even a point in trying, which makes me really sad.

Still, a girl can dream-- it would be my greatest wish.
No hurting, no blood, no pain. Just peaceful and relaxing, slowly losing unconsciousness and just leaving this hell.

please share your ideal method if you have one, even if it is unrealistic like mine
 
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redeeming_butterfly

Life is no more beautiful than its cruelest suffer
May 15, 2024
47
My ideal method, which I will use in a month's time, is the night-night method. Applied correctly, it should be comfortable, quick and painless.
Before it was VSED, but I moved away from that after studying this forum here. However, I still find VSED very interesting. But it's definitely the opposite of quick and easy. And very individual.
 
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sancsuinet

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Apr 11, 2023
68
I really relate.
since I was a kid i dreamed of drowning.
i want to swim out so so far and just not be able to come back in even if i tried.
ive always loved water, and i know in practice it wouldnt be a calm way to go, but i really want to sink.
 
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Artemisia

Student
May 24, 2024
124
It's a really f++++d up world when people have to suffer against their will! My ideal method would be take a pill and immediately fall unconscious and be death in a few minutes. Also no pain, no blood, no SI kicking in. One can only dream! The method I've chosen, if done right, should be close to that, still a minute or two before losing conscience may seem like an eternity! I always felt inclined to CO poisoning and with the GULPS system it seems even better than using coal.
 
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FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
35,171
If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all, I just wish to disappear and for this futile and undesirable existence to be eternally forgotten about. But if not that then I'd just wish for a painless death like never waking again, all I wish for is to fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep, to have the option to die in such a peaceful way truly would be such a relief and would solve everything for me.
 
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unabletocope

I'd like to shut down
Mar 13, 2024
664
same as yours. not comfortable with hanging although i have rope, not keen on SN although i have that with meds to go with it, more open to jumping than i was but i can't think of a spot i'm happy with, truthfully i don't believe overdosing is as unreliable as others here make out, i tried an overdose of various meds in 2022 and apparently i nearly died, i have more of them now than then so i don't see how it wouldn't work, to be honest this site has put me off trying in the ways i thought would work, i'm more confused about what to try than is necessary
 
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cait_sith

Brain rotted, often missing word
Apr 8, 2024
82
also wanna die in bathtub but with fentanyl while listening to loveliescrushing. Fentanyl or gun would be best for me, but can't get either here.
 
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leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

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Nov 25, 2023
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I would like the pill option too. But it's a thing that works in movies and not so much in reality.
 
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Onelegman

Onelegman

I use a translator
May 24, 2024
408
Connecting something to the brain and, by pressing a button, it would turn off. Or morphine overdose, something that could be instantaneous, a gun, something that is simple, without waiting and 100% effective. That is everyone's dream.
 
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lkjhgfdsa1

lkjhgfdsa1

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Apr 17, 2024
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My ideal method, which I will use in a month's time, is the night-night method. Applied correctly, it should be comfortable, quick and painless.
Before it was VSED, but I moved away from that after studying this forum here. However, I still find VSED very interesting. But it's definitely the opposite of quick and easy. And very individual.
I also have a romantized view of VSED
but that's probs bc I suffer from ED for so long
and you are right, you definitely set yourself up for suffering
I really relate.
since I was a kid i dreamed of drowning.
i want to swim out so so far and just not be able to come back in even if i tried.
ive always loved water, and i know in practice it wouldnt be a calm way to go, but i really want to sink.
i also feel like drowning would be calm for some reason
but i actually read on this site that it is not calm at all
because it triggers your survival instinct a lot

i also wish it could be as easy as just sinking
but ig it's not :(
I really relate.
since I was a kid i dreamed of drowning.
i want to swim out so so far and just not be able to come back in even if i tried.
ive always loved water, and i know in practice it wouldnt be a calm way to go, but i really want to sink.
i also feel like drowning would be calm for some reason
but i actually read on this site that it is not calm at all
because it triggers your survival instinct a lot

i also wish it could be as easy as just sinking
but ig it's not :(
It's a really f++++d up world when people have to suffer against their will! My ideal method would be take a pill and immediately fall unconscious and be death in a few minutes. Also no pain, no blood, no SI kicking in. One can only dream! The method I've chosen, if done right, should be close to that, still a minute or two before losing conscience may seem like an eternity! I always felt inclined to CO poisoning and with the GULPS system it seems even better than using coal.
what is the gulps system?
this site has put me off trying in the ways i thought would work,
lmao yea same before i was on this site, i thought ctb'ing was easy
also wanna die in bathtub but with fentanyl while listening to loveliescrushing. Fentanyl or gun would be best for me, but can't get either here.
truly sounds like a dream to me
a gun would solve my issues, too bad i'm not in us :(
I would like the pill option too. But it's a thing that works in movies and not so much in reality.
my life is such a bad b-level movie
I would like the pill option too. But it's a thing that works in movies and not so much in reality.
my life is such a bad b-level movie
Connecting something to the brain and, by pressing a button, it would turn off. Or morphine overdose, something that could be instantaneous, a gun, something that is simple, without waiting and 100% effective. That is everyone's dream.
you're right :(
 
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Artemisia

Student
May 24, 2024
124
what is the gulps system?

It's a way of producing clean CO using sulphuric and formic acids. The produced gas goes through a water bath to remove the formic acid vapors and leave only nice CO. It uses a mask to inhale it instead of having to fill a whole room/space.
 
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Traveller12724

Student
May 14, 2024
113
I wish I had been on this site those years when N was available for ordering online, it seems like a peaceful way to go.
 
ham and potatoes

ham and potatoes

Just some hillbilly
Mar 27, 2024
152
also wanna die in bathtub but with fentanyl while listening to loveliescrushing. Fentanyl or gun would be best for me, but can't get either here.
Yeah, either F, a nitrazine, or a barbiturate would deff be my top pics. Dark net markets are about the only place to get any of em
 
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timetodie24

Specialist
Apr 14, 2023
393
My ideal method would be something painful, violent but slow. Where no chance of backing out or being 'saved' during the agonising process though. I'm not sure what though. Maybe being crushed by something and awake the whole time until I die.
I don't want peaceful, I want to suffer like I deserve.
 
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lkjhgfdsa1

lkjhgfdsa1

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Apr 17, 2024
391
My ideal method would be something painful, violent but slow. Where no chance of backing out or being 'saved' during the agonising process though. I'm not sure what though. Maybe being crushed by something and awake the whole time until I die.
I don't want peaceful, I want to suffer like I deserve.
you don't deserve that!
 
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Aya&Dazy

Member
Nov 11, 2022
59
I used to imagine about that method a lot too but when i try to do reality check again and again, no matter how drunk i am, I will still feel the pain from drawning. Pressuring within my head while sinking and I am too weak& drunk to retrieve... It would be quite a while to end, so I change my mind.

For me, "N or Drug" is my only choice. If i can't get a whole of N.

My other ideal method is drug over dose. I don't do drug much in my life at all. I really had no clue how to get it.
 
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frost_

Member
Jun 6, 2024
13
It's a really f++++d up world when people have to suffer against their will! My ideal method would be take a pill and immediately fall unconscious and be death in a few minutes. Also no pain, no blood, no SI kicking in. One can only dream! The method I've chosen, if done right, should be close to that, still a minute or two before losing conscience may seem like an eternity! I always felt inclined to CO poisoning and with the GULPS system it seems even better than using coal.
I think this is the way to go as well. Has to be high PPM to not suffer.
 
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dopaminenthusiast

dopaminenthusiast

Member
May 4, 2024
17
I've been thinking about what my ideal method would be.
Honestly, everything is so violent-- and I'm just a girl.

My ideal method would be to take a nice hot bath, take some pills and maybe a drink, and just slowly drift off.
However, I know this is super unreliable and highly likely not to be successful... so there is not even a point in trying, which makes me really sad.

Still, a girl can dream-- it would be my greatest wish.
No hurting, no blood, no pain. Just peaceful and relaxing, slowly losing unconsciousness and just leaving this hell.

please share your ideal method if you have one, even if it is unrealistic like mine
ever since i was a kid (which is sad if you think of it) i wished to go to sleep and never wake up so my ideal method would be some like that. like that's very unlike to happen (unless you are sick but we're talking about peaceful methods and there's nothing like it in a illness) I'd wish i could take a pill and just go to sleep, dream, a pretty one or a bizarre one i don't really care, just dream. and when the dream ends, there is nothing more. you rested well and you will never wake up.
seriously thinking about it, maybe the pegasus will be the closest i would be to anything like that.
 
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dolemitedrums

Member
Jun 12, 2024
44
My ideal method would be something painful, violent but slow. Where no chance of backing out or being 'saved' during the agonising process though. I'm not sure what though. Maybe being crushed by something and awake the whole time until I die.
I don't want peaceful, I want to suffer like I deserve.

Do it however you want but I doubt you deserve that. Even serial killers don't get put through that when executed.
 

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