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Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
- Jul 1, 2020
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i suppose this would go under recovery however its stressing me out to no end and the reason i 'attempted' last time followed by just cancelling my appointment so in a way, it goes here.
i NEED to go to my next appointment alone. ive never gone alone before. i have separation anxiety with my husband due to past events and honestly would prefer not to however if i want the relationship i would like to have with my husband i have to so i can vent to my therapist and she can help me......whatever shes gonna do to help. maybe nothing idk, but i cant just talk to my husband first. im freaking out and panicking about the whole thing and i dont know what to do. anyway i thought about messaging him this and would like an opinion on it.
"The other day you had said that you felt left out and, i know :(. I don't mean to. Well I do, but not in a bad way, I'm just concerned. Where you're #1 in my life, the person I spend most/all of my time with what you don't know sort of involves you. I haven't wanted to say anything because I don't want you to hate yourself feeling like you've done something wrong and i also don't want to lose you.
The last therapist appointment i had i was suppose to go alone. I was suppose to tell her everything and, im not exactly sure what it would accomplish however i still feel it best to take this step first. I was scared to tell you that i 'wanted' (as much as my separation anxiety would let me) to go alone because i was concerned that it being my first time alone and just before that me not daring to let you out of my sight that you would become over suspicious. Its not horrible, its not that bad, im just concerned. Im actually fairly confident that im the one over reacting. Anyway i ended up cancelling it because the stress of it became too much and i just couldnt deal with it.
I have another appointment on the 27th, i dont want to leave you out. I want to be able to tell you anything and everything however for now i want to tread carefully. I hope you understand that im only keeping things from you out of love. "
btw he doesnt know about the attempt the morning of. thats something id bring up after the therapist appointment
i NEED to go to my next appointment alone. ive never gone alone before. i have separation anxiety with my husband due to past events and honestly would prefer not to however if i want the relationship i would like to have with my husband i have to so i can vent to my therapist and she can help me......whatever shes gonna do to help. maybe nothing idk, but i cant just talk to my husband first. im freaking out and panicking about the whole thing and i dont know what to do. anyway i thought about messaging him this and would like an opinion on it.
"The other day you had said that you felt left out and, i know :(. I don't mean to. Well I do, but not in a bad way, I'm just concerned. Where you're #1 in my life, the person I spend most/all of my time with what you don't know sort of involves you. I haven't wanted to say anything because I don't want you to hate yourself feeling like you've done something wrong and i also don't want to lose you.
The last therapist appointment i had i was suppose to go alone. I was suppose to tell her everything and, im not exactly sure what it would accomplish however i still feel it best to take this step first. I was scared to tell you that i 'wanted' (as much as my separation anxiety would let me) to go alone because i was concerned that it being my first time alone and just before that me not daring to let you out of my sight that you would become over suspicious. Its not horrible, its not that bad, im just concerned. Im actually fairly confident that im the one over reacting. Anyway i ended up cancelling it because the stress of it became too much and i just couldnt deal with it.
I have another appointment on the 27th, i dont want to leave you out. I want to be able to tell you anything and everything however for now i want to tread carefully. I hope you understand that im only keeping things from you out of love. "
btw he doesnt know about the attempt the morning of. thats something id bring up after the therapist appointment