Venting My home is absolutely disgusting

[Imhopeless]

I cant stand to live like this. I know I'm the age where I can take care of the house and clean but its hard to do so with other 3 members a cat and a dog. My room is the only place in this house that doesn't stink or doesn't have some insects living their best life.
Honestly I'm kind of scared venting about it here, idk why but it seems as if I'll post this, someone will somehow tell the social services and they'll come here lol

My home is a mess, both physically and mentally. No one cares about these animals well enough to actually give them proper care, which always makes me so fucking sad because they deserve better and I cant do more for them. I cant remember when was the last time I saw someone clean. My sibling's room is literally filled with trash and I mean literally. No one in the family dares to come inside there besides my own sibling because the smell is foul. I tried to convince them to clean up, tried reasoning that it stinks so bad the stench is on them but it didn't changed anything. There isn't a single room where there aren't any trash laying around. The worst is definitely the kitchen. No one washes the dishes, I tried keeping up with it but I gave up, at this point I've been buying, with the money I earned, instant food and bottled water because it's hard to find a clean glass in here. Since trash are pilling up as well as dried up food in the sink the fucking flies and ants have overpowered the kitchen. I hate going there as the sounds and the look alone make me feel ill. It's the kind of mess you see in the homes of people who passed alone and rotted there for god knows how long. Its really bad and I can't keep up with it. My school life is also failing so I have to choose one, either grades or keeping this place in one piece. Its really tiring. I hate leaving my room as it means getting attacked by all kinds of disgusting smells, trash on the floor that sticks to you and the fucking flies that want to eat you alive

I feel stupid I have to clarify but it's just a vent, idk how but dont contact any social services or god knows who else. I've gotten used to this life and I dont want to be the reason to make this family even more dysfunctional (I know you possibly cant but I have this need to beg)

 

[dhjsjdjdjdjhc]

Oh baby I'm so sorry you have to deal with such things, it's always a pain when adults aren't ready to be adults. I hope you'll be alright, so will your grades and animals. I hope that one day you'll have a great house to yourself, one you can keep clean. I understand your concerns about not wanting things ruined further for your family but you shouldn't be used to such a thing. I know it'd create a problem at this moment but if your homelife gets worse please contact a teacher or someone else who could help you. It's already concerning that you ended up on this site, that says a lot already. Please try to keep yourself as your main focus, maybe you could buy something to kill the ants and make the flies go away? Try to focus on your grades and your own room for a while, it'll help you get a nice house for yourself in the future. And you could pick out a mug, a plate, a fork and such for yourself and keep them clean in your room, wash them and put them back once you're done. That way you can save up your money too and you won't have to deal with more than what you need to use. Never forget that you're who will be with you forever, not that place nor your parents. Keep yourself safe and sound, focus on creating a good life for yourself instead of picking up the pieces of the lives of others.
You got this ❤

 

[itswhatits]

I feel that completely. My situation isn't entirely similar -- my housemates are just an old college friend and his polycule, and they're not quite as bad as that, but it's still an absolute fucking pigsty. I wish I could say that I'm better than them at keeping my shit tidy, but the most I can say is that I don't contribute to the mess as much as the rest of them. I still fucking contribute.

Living like that is god-awful, I'm sorry you have to deal with that. I hope you can get out of that situation soon.