Venting My grandfather is dying and I can't help him

[iLikeFrogs]

I just don't know what to do. I tried to stay a bit longer alive since I don't have a good method yet and am kinda scared to ctb again but things are going to shit again. My granddad is bedbound and has seizures every day at least once a day. Euthanasia is illegal in my country and even though I know I wouldn't get qualified to get euthanized, my granddad is just suffering. He has been depressed for a long time and now he can't even communicate how and why he feels. I really want the best for him but I know it's sufffering for no reason and is just stuffed with psych meds that we don't even know if they work. It's a lot for me and and I can't imagine how he feels, it's crushing me and makes me want to kms more but I know I can't. I'm so lost and confused I'm sorry if it's incoherent.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm so sorry for what you are going thru. If your grandfather is coherent you can tell him to stop eating and drinking and then call in hospice to keep him comfortable. Research VSED.

 

[HenryHenriksen_6E]

Damn, I'm really sorry you have to go through that. Loss is incredibly painful when you see it coming, as the days leading up are dreadful. I'm sorry I can't give any advice on how to deal with this, and it probably feels unbearable right now, but if you need someone to hear you out, I'm willing to listen to it, as I've been in roughly the same scenario as you. All I can tell is that it'll likely be hard to deal with, and getting back to normalcy will take a while. Take a break; take time to process and comprehend. At last I hope your grandfather will feel a little more comfortable, and I hope he'll find peace.