Help My grades are absolute crap

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Call me a perfectionist if you will, but I have a B+ in English and I don't know how I can live with that. I tried so hard, I did, but all of my family members think that I'm a lazy piece of crap that refuses to listen to any feedback, which is untrue, and they've offered little to no support. I feel like such a failure. The counselor said it would be fine, the teacher said it would be fine but I just can't accept it. I'm supposed to be a straight-A student and I have been until now. It's been one of my favorite subjects yet I always seem to just not be good enough for an A. I have an 89 (B+) and I just can't stop thinking about if I had been just a little better and gotten better scores on one assignment I might have been able to get a 90 (A-), but now I've failed at my only duty as a student and no good university will take me. I don't know how I can keep going.

 

[NoTearsRemain]

Speaking from what little lucidity and attachment to life I have left, please don't CTB/go to this forum for a borderline B+. I'm begging you. There are other ways. Self-harm if you must. But please, please, please don't do it.