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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
186
I begged her to stay, to wait before making any decision. I begged her to talk to me, but she did it by text message instead of voice. I told her I would suffer from her absence; I said that if she was aware of my suffering and still decided to block me, it would be an act of malice. I was abandoned. Please help me, Sasu users. I cried, I begged, I humiliated myself. I'm not writing this out of exaggeration; I can't put into words everything I feel. I just wanted to be loved.
I begged her to stay, to wait before making any decision. I begged her to talk to me, but she did it by text message instead of voice. I told her I would suffer from her absence; I said that if she was aware of my suffering and still decided to block me, it would be an act of malice. I was abandoned. Please help me, Sasu users. I cried, I begged, I humiliated myself. I'm not writing this out of exaggeration; I can't put into words everything I feel. I just wanted to be loved.
I said I could try to kill myself. I said I have no friends, no one in my life, and even knowing that, she decided to leave.
I begged her to stay, to wait before making any decision. I begged her to talk to me, but she did it by text message instead of voice. I told her I would suffer from her absence; I said that if she was aware of my suffering and still decided to block me, it would be an act of malice. I was abandoned. Please help me, Sasu users. I cried, I begged, I humiliated myself. I'm not writing this out of exaggeration; I can't put into words everything I feel. I just wanted to be loved.

I said I could try to kill myself. I said I have no friends, no one in my life, and even knowing that, she decided to leave.
I would have been so happy. I deserved that happy life. I would have been so... so... happy if I had been with her.
 
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cvury

Member
May 20, 2025
40
never put yourself down for other people's choices. it was clearly outside of your control. at this point the best thing you can do is try to move on
 
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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
186
I begged her to stay, to wait before making any decision. I begged her to talk to me, but she did it by text message instead of voice. I told her I would suffer from her absence; I said that if she was aware of my suffering and still decided to block me, it would be an act of malice. I was abandoned. Please help me, Sasu users. I cried, I begged, I humiliated myself. I'm not writing this out of exaggeration; I can't put into words everything I feel. I just wanted to be loved.

I said I could try to kill myself. I said I have no friends, no one in my life, and even knowing that, she decided to leave.

I would have been so happy. I deserved that happy life. I would have been so... so... happy if I had been with her.
She knows I'm suffering while I write this. I said I would suffer for the rest of my life, that I would cry every night for her. She knows.
never put yourself down for other people's choices. it was clearly outside of your control. at this point the best thing you can do is try to move on
Please, but I gave up so much for her. Please, just repeat that it's not my fault. I feel so alone that I can't describe it in text on this forum.
 
SASU-KE

SASU-KE

How my day starts ↑
Nov 26, 2025
475
I understand you're suffering tremendously. However, you can't expect someone else to stay in a relationship with you just for your sake. Also, don't ever humiliate yourself. Self respect and confidence is very important in any healthy relationship.

I know you don't want to hear this right now, but you must move on. This Particular relationship is over.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,073
wait, how tf you goin around sayin yous was an incel when yous had a gf dawg
 
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OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
474
I mean, i think his people would disown him for that one, it's still *technically* having had a gf lol.
Do imaginary ones count? 😭

OP you can't blackmail people into staying with you by threatening suicide dude. Sad
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,073
Do imaginary ones count? 😭

OP you can't blackmail people into staying with you by threatening suicide dude. Sad
If yes, can we count Holo from the hit anime series Spice And Wolf : Merchant Meets The Wise Wolf as my imaginary gf. You should watch it.
spice-and-wolf-holo.gif
 
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OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
474
If yes, can we count Holo from the hit anime series Spice And Wolf : Merchant Meets The Wise Wolf as my imaginary gf. You should watch it.
spice-and-wolf-holo.gif
I am too cool for anime unfortunately 😎 😏
 
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rabbitjack

Member
Dec 6, 2025
62
I know how you feel and it's very hard. You can't control how they feel. And if they feel they don't want to be with you anymore, then you should also not want to be with someone that doesn't want to be with you. You shouldn't like people that don't like you.
 
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Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
186
wait, how tf you goin around sayin yous was an incel when yous had a gf dawg
All I can do now is cry, Astolfo. I'm suffering so much.
I know how you feel and it's very hard. You can't control how they feel. And if they feel they don't want to be with you anymore, then you should also not want to be with someone that doesn't want to be with you. You shouldn't like people that don't like you.
Yes, I had that exact thought while begging to stay. But I'm so empty, I'm so alone, I need to sleep embraced and hearing that someone loves me tonight. But there's no one.
 
Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
519
All I can do now is cry, Astolfo. I'm suffering so much.
You said in another thread she was your online gf, and she has a boyfriend.. Not to sound like an asshole, but did you really think it was going to work out?
 
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Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
186
You said in another thread she was your online gf, and she has a boyfriend.. Not to sound like an asshole, but did you really think it was going to work out?
I did everything for her. She told me not to break her heart. A year later she abandoned me. I trusted her more than anyone else in the world. She was everything to me.
 
Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
519
I did everything for her. She told me not to break her heart. A year later she abandoned me. I trusted her more than anyone else in the world. She was everything to me.
I get it. It's happened to me, but in real life. I moved on rather quickly.

The thing is, and I know you've heard it many times, NEVER trust someone you met online. Maybe she told you not to break her heart because she wanted to pull your strings and get as much as she could from you(that happened to me).

Did you ever talk on the phone, or have a video chat with her? If not, there's that extreme possibility that she wasn't who she said she was.
 
Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
186
I get it. It's happened to me, but in real life. I moved on rather quickly.

The thing is, and I know you've heard it many times, NEVER trust someone you met online. Maybe she told you not to break her heart because she wanted to pull your strings and get as much as she could from you(that happened to me).

Did you ever talk on the phone, or have a video chat with her? If not, there's that extreme possibility that she wasn't who she said she was.
We used to masturbate together. She would show me her body, I would show her mine. She had access to all my documents, I even sent her money. She spent days and nights on voice calls with me. She knew all my problems, she said she loved me.

She gave me her geographical location, but I ended up deleting it. I wish I had kept that information. I showed her my family.
I get it. It's happened to me, but in real life. I moved on rather quickly.

The thing is, and I know you've heard it many times, NEVER trust someone you met online. Maybe she told you not to break her heart because she wanted to pull your strings and get as much as she could from you(that happened to me).

Did you ever talk on the phone, or have a video chat with her? If not, there's that extreme possibility that she wasn't who she said she was.
She was the person who held my life in her hands. She chose to trample on my feelings when I begged her to stay, to stop talking to me, but without blocking me, without making me inaccessible to her.
 
Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,073
All I can do now is cry, Astolfo. I'm suffering so much.

Yes, I had that exact thought while begging to stay. But I'm so empty, I'm so alone, I need to sleep embraced and hearing that someone loves me tonight. But there's no one.
i mean, you could watch Spice And Wolf 2024
We used to masturbate together. She would show me her body, I would show her mine. She had access to all my documents, I even sent her money. She spent days and nights on voice calls with me. She knew all my problems, she said she loved me.

She gave me her geographical location, but I ended up deleting it. I wish I had kept that information. I showed her my family.

She was the person who held my life in her hands. She chose to trample on my feelings when I begged her to stay, to stop talking to me, but without blocking me, without making me inaccessible to her.
wait... you... sent her money ? Bro, that's called an e-girl/escort. You can't just buy a gf, this isnt runescape.
 
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chudcell

BPD + attachment issues :/
Feb 20, 2026
6
Sounds like you got fleeced by a com girl
 

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