gingerplum

gingerplum

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Nov 5, 2018
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This is a very difficult week for me.

We have lost several people this week, at least, and my heart is really heavy. While I'm happy that they're finally free of the pain they suffered, saying goodbye is still bittersweet.

If you didn't know her, please meet my friend @woodstacker. Some weeks ago, she PM'ed me to say hello and ask a few questions.

From message one and thereafter, she was just so grateful to have found this community, and she always expressed how thankful she was for advice and recommendations.

Woodstacker wasn't exactly a social butterfly; she seldom posted on the boards. Instead she relied on a few people for guidance and suggestions. She communicated with me regularly, and went so far as to tell me she thought of me as a surrogate daughter... this moved me profoundly.

I really enjoyed chatting with her. Woodstacker lived in a tropical paradise with her husband, and she had three daughters and three granddaughters she completely adored. She was in failing health, and she never wanted her family to see her as sickly or infirm.

What really impressed me is that this grandmother of advancing years not only figured out tor browser, the dark web, and bitcoin, she advised me with some tips on how she did it, and what perils to avoid. She said she wanted to "give back" to the people that had helped her find her way.

Her last message to me was yesterday; she said she had premeditated with oxy & benzos, and I could tell she was just a bit loopy. I'm so relieved to know that she was free from any discomfort or anxiety.

Her method was Fentanyl.

She wanted me to thank the community on her behalf, so thank you all for making this the welcoming, supportive group that SS is.
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
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I hope she found what she was looking for. :aw::heart:
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
Hope she´s in peace now.
@gingerplum It´s great what you are doing for the people that leave this world by suicide. I wish you would be the one that tells the people here, when I´m gone by hanging after my "great day"
 
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gingerplum

gingerplum

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Nov 5, 2018
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Hope she´s in peace now.
@gingerplum It´s great what you are doing for the people that leave this world by suicide. I wish you would be the one that tells the people here, when I´m gone by hanging after my "great day"
Of course; it would be my pleasure. But please, please stick around for just a little while :wink:.
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
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I will try to do so. And thanks for the offer. Hope you will also stay here for a while
 
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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
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I really wish I was as kind as you are ginger. I've been here since you first joined and I've watched you unrelentlessly offer kindness free of judgement to anybody who could take it. I don't know how a heart stays so pure through this shit hole of a life but I and many others appreciate it.
 
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gingerplum

gingerplum

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Nov 5, 2018
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I really wish I was as kind as you are ginger. I've been here since you first joined and I've watched you unrelentlessly offer kindness free of judgement to anybody who could take it. I don't know how a heart stays so pure through this shit hole of a life but I and many others appreciate it.
That's very sweet, thank you, but I have a lot of snark and a very acerbic sense of humor... I'm sure you'll see it yet :wink:.
 
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Elias

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Mar 19, 2019
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You're a treasure @gingerplum.

I'm glad that Woodstacker was able to find what they needed through this community. I hope she's at peace now, and I'm happy that the collective efforts of this website contributed to another peaceful end. That's the true spirit of this forum.
 
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gingerplum

gingerplum

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Nov 5, 2018
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You're a treasure @gingerplum.

I'm glad that Woodstacker was able to find what they needed through this community. I hope she's at peace now, and I'm happy that the collective efforts of this website contributed to another peaceful end. That's the true spirit of this forum.
I think we have a real camaraderie, even if it is virtual. We may squabble sometimes, but we always rally around each other. Thanks, Elias, you're the best.
 
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Alec

Alec

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Apr 22, 2019
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I hope she's where she wants to be right now❤️
 
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okaoki

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Aug 4, 2018
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may she find peace now
may she find peace now
 
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clownangel

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Sep 25, 2019
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Oh my gosh she sounds so sweet. I hope she's at peace & feeling better. I'm glad she sought you out & that in general this board is so kind, even though it's honestly kind of jarring to see others leave and move on with their journeys.
 
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blackflag1

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Oct 6, 2019
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I remember woodstacker and I hope it was a peaceful transition for her.
 
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lovemelovemenot

lovemelovemenot

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Jun 22, 2019
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I hope she found what she was looking for and is resting easily now. You're amazing for being there with her in her last moments.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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Hugs to you Gingerplum.:hug::hug::hug: I do remember seeing woodstackers screen name but I didn't pm with her. I hope she is at peace now. :heart:
You are an angel. :hug::heart::hug::heart: I will miss you if you happen to find peace before I do. (I think I've mentioned this before) :hug:
It is always sad when someone from here leaves but hopefully they are in a better place. :heart:
 
Rachel74

Rachel74

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Sep 7, 2019
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Hugs to ginger plum and I know woodpecker is finally at peace ❤️
 
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I never know what to say in these circumstances. Farewell to woodstacker and my thoughts are with you gingerplum.
 
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