Story My First Post

[RiverFlow]

Hi Everyone,

This is my first post. Ive wanted to ctb on and off for 14 years. Extremely chronic over the last few years.
I had one last thing I felt like sticking around for. A person I was very much in love with. Alas it was building house on very shifting sand. Ive been in communication w/ Europe for 2 years and now I am over the edge ready to arrange what I can.

I can't believe my life. I am speechless that I am this low. I am completely heartbroken to the point I truly cannot function. I would be catatonic if I didn't chat about small talk from time to time. My heart is in smithereens. The bulimia which I spent so much time healing is back in full force. I am a shell of who I was. I miss me so much. I have so much love in my heart too.

 

[Beepvonboop]

Welcome, and also I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. I relate rly hard and I hope you manage to find some peace or happiness. U got this :>

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry life has been so difficult. I'd say I came close to having an eating disorder at one point. I know how destructive they are. I think people have made megathreads in the 'offtopic' section if you ever want support with it.

Otherwise, welcome to the forum. I hope you find comfort and sollace here.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really dreadful and tiring having to suffer like that, I find it awful how people suffer so much all through no fault of their own. But anyway best wishes.

 

[RiverFlow]

Welcome, and also I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. I relate rly hard and I hope you manage to find some peace or happiness. U got this :>

I'm so sorry life has been so difficult. I'd say I came close to having an eating disorder at one point. I know how destructive they are. I think people have made megathreads in the 'offtopic' section if you ever want support with it.

Otherwise, welcome to the forum. I hope you find comfort and sollace here.

It must be really dreadful and tiring having to suffer like that, I find it awful how people suffer so much all through no fault of their own. But anyway best wishes.

Thank you all very much