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serpiente
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- Sep 13, 2019
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Hi everyone, i am supposed to marry this december, i love my boyfriend. But I cannot stop having this desire of ending everything. I dream several methos and the afterlife in a limbro over a carpet that seemed from the Alladins movie. From hanging, to being electrocuted touching a high tension cable in porpouse. And recently an obession over self mutilation and body modification to feel pain because in my mind it feels good and relieves me somehow. I dont know if i am suicidal. But the idea of death and how I pass thorugh methods and trying to imagine the feeling of each one but as always, there are two main reasons i never have attemted: fail it and ending as vegetable. And what is after death. I wish there was nothing, but i feel so afraid that there is something.
Thank you for reading.
Thank you for reading.