Kennedy
New Member
- Dec 18, 2018
- 3
Tonight I will begin by leaving an excess of food and water for my animals. Although, I doubt they will need as much as I'll give them. I'm supposed to go home for Christmas tomorrow... My mum will know that something has happened when I don't update her on my travel plans. I'm just thankful that I live 2 hours away from her. She won't be the one to find me. She's requested wellness checks in the past when she was worried (shortly after a near-fatal suicide attempt).
I'll then take a warm bath and listen to music as my pre-SN meds kick in. I'll dress in my most comfortable clothing and say goodbye to my animals. They are my heart.
My final act will be talking to my Mum over Messenger before I take my SN. We will say goodnight and I'll tell her that I love her. It will appear normal to her as we do so all the time... but for me, it will be my final goodnight.
I will then finally cuddle up in my clean sheets and sleep. My cats will undoubtedly join me. I will love them until I no longer can.
With my letters, I'm going to leave behind an SD card containing my favourite music and all of the photos I've taken over the years.
This will break my family and that is something I can never truly apologize for.
If I never reply to this thread, you'll know that I'm gone.
I'll then take a warm bath and listen to music as my pre-SN meds kick in. I'll dress in my most comfortable clothing and say goodbye to my animals. They are my heart.
My final act will be talking to my Mum over Messenger before I take my SN. We will say goodnight and I'll tell her that I love her. It will appear normal to her as we do so all the time... but for me, it will be my final goodnight.
I will then finally cuddle up in my clean sheets and sleep. My cats will undoubtedly join me. I will love them until I no longer can.
With my letters, I'm going to leave behind an SD card containing my favourite music and all of the photos I've taken over the years.
This will break my family and that is something I can never truly apologize for.
If I never reply to this thread, you'll know that I'm gone.