Discussion My Feelings

[Miss clefable]

To be honest I feel I don't belong here anymore I'm so depressed and jealous of people succeeding on a certain method I feel trapped and hopeless my girlfriend has been awful towards me I'm just tired all I feel I'm doing is constantly moaning and I'm getting nowhere to the point I'm considering jumping

 

[TiredHorse]

I'm both jealous of the successes and sad to have seen good people ctb.

Myself, I feel like a fraud: I have all that I need in order to ctb, but I've flinched three times.

I'll miss you if you go, Miss Clefable, but I will try to focus on the relief you must have found.

 

[Miss clefable]

I'm both jealous of the successes and sad to have seen good people ctb.

Myself, I feel like a fraud: I have all that I need in order to ctb, but I've flinched three times.

I'll miss you if you go, Miss Clefable, but I will try to focus on the relief you must have found.

My girlfriend won't let me have a peaceful death and hugs I'll miss you too

 

[chemicalctb]

we all feel like frauds until we do it, then we feel peace, true peace, people who dont have depression and going through alot continually, wont understand.

 

[chemicalctb]

my favorite quote from epicurus "death is nothing to us, for when we are, death has not come, and when death has come, we are not".

 

[worldexploder]

I am very sorry that your girlfriend is treating you like this. If she is going to take away your right to die the least she can do is be empathetic towards you and treat you kindly.

"Moaning and groaning" so to speak is apart of why we are on SS. Our lives suck and we have every right to talk about it. Your pain is very real and you deserve all the love and support in the world.

 

[Xerxes]

I wrote a status on my page stating I felt like a fraud and people wished I would go already. My wife asked me, "Since you haven't done it yet, why are you still here?"

 

[BurningLights]

You have as much right to be here as anyone else miss clef. Don't feel bad for moaning, it's a release of how we feel, and if I'm right in thinking your situation is pretty shitty with your girlfriend, then that's going to have an impact on your thoughts and actions. We can only 'fake it' for so long.
Peace love and hugs

 

[Johnnythefox]

I wrote a status on my page stating I felt like a fraud and people wished I would go already. My wife asked me, "Since you haven't done it yet, why are you still here?"

When I told my Doctor I wanted to end it all he asked "why haven't you?" I replied "I'm a coward"

 

[chemicalctb]

I am very sorry that your girlfriend is treating you like this. If she is going to take away your right to die the least she can do is be empathetic towards you and treat you kindly.

"Moaning and groaning" so to speak is apart of why we are on SS. Our lives suck and we have every right to talk about it. Your pain is very real and you deserve all the love and support in the world.

not really, i have what you call a "good" life, and i just want to die, i dont feel happiness no matter what i do or where i travel, all i feel is bad and sad and wanting to die, ive had whatever i wanted, i feel i dont deserve it and whatever i get/do comes as a bitter reminder of how useless i am and how i dont deserve anything and how things that should make me happy never do, the thought of dying is the only one that fbrings a smile to my face.

 

[Xerxes]

When I told my Doctor I wanted to end it all he asked "why haven't you?" I replied "I'm a coward"

I said the same. She told me I'm being selfish and I should stop thinking and just put action to my words. So here I am now. Planning my exit quietly.

 

[bigj75]

I wrote a status on my page stating I felt like a fraud and people wished I would go already. My wife asked me, "Since you haven't done it yet, why are you still here?"

Please be joking cause if you aren't im done.

 

[Xerxes]

*hugs miss clef* We've all been there. So easy for some, so much harder for the rest to end the pain and to cease living. We have connections with others who don't want us to go, but I feel personally, I'm going to break hearts when I go. They'll deal with it, then move on with life and I'll just be a forgotten memory. Not the perfect way, but it'll suffice.

 

[Xerxes]

Please be joking cause if you aren't im done.

On here, not on FB if you're thinking that.

 

[funnyvalentine]

To be honest I feel I don't belong here anymore I'm so depressed and jealous of people succeeding on a certain method I feel trapped and hopeless my girlfriend has been awful towards me I'm just tired all I feel I'm doing is constantly moaning and I'm getting nowhere to the point I'm considering jumping

I can understand that feeling of utter frustration and desperation, but 'moaning' is totally alright. Most of us are at the end of their wits, that's why we are here. I hope you find peace in some way and don't suffer. Hugs.

 

[Lara Francis]

To be honest I feel I don't belong here anymore I'm so depressed and jealous of people succeeding on a certain method I feel trapped and hopeless my girlfriend has been awful towards me I'm just tired all I feel I'm doing is constantly moaning and I'm getting nowhere to the point I'm considering jumping

Sorry miss.hugs xx

 

[bigj75]

I can understand that feeling of utter frustration and desperation, but 'moaning' is totally alright. Most of us are at the end of their wits, that's why we are here. I hope you find peace in some way and don't suffer. Hugs.

 

[Fucking loving it]

I think you belong here just as much as we all do. ♡ You are a big part of this community.
Fuck. I will miss you.
I'm sorry about the girlfriend deal.
Sending you love and hugs.

 

[bigj75]

It's time for a new gf.

 

[Miss clefable]

It's time for a new gf.

It's time to die

 

[funnyvalentine]

It's time to die

That may be true and only you can know and decide that, but bigj75 might have a point here...somewhere...

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I'm caught up in the same predicament, my family won't let me leave:(

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

It's hard to see the primary posters or shoutbox users leave or ctb, it's like they all jumped the canyon and left you behind, after it all ,it just leaves you feeling more lonely and lost, like losing your comfort.

 

[bigj75]

That may be true and only you can know and decide that, but bigj75 might have a point here...somewhere...

I mean its just a suggestion. Of course feelings will still be there but people who have more dating options statistically have less emotional damage from relationships. The best relationships with females I've had were when i was talking with multiple women. No cheating on them or anything but realizing you can have feelings for more than just one girl and socializing with them helps alot from my experience.

 

[Goldie]

To be honest I feel I don't belong here anymore I'm so depressed and jealous of people succeeding on a certain method I feel trapped and hopeless my girlfriend has been awful towards me I'm just tired all I feel I'm doing is constantly moaning and I'm getting nowhere to the point I'm considering jumping

So what exactly is your intended method? Have you tried to get hold of N?

 

[Dog Food]

we all feel like frauds until we do it, then we feel peace, true peace, people who dont have depression and going through alot continually, wont understand.

I didn't realize everyone else felt like that as well. I'm terrified of dying, but I feel I need to, and as I suffer more and more, no one else seems to take it as seriously as a suicide attempt cry for help by a teenager. I can't handle this world, and I wish I was as brave as I was when I was an impulsive kid.