Title (WARNING NOT written by me): I really, really do not like "the whole concept of life"
"Apologies for any mistakes and for any inappropriate words, english is not my first language and I am just tired and frustrated. Basically everything in life is so random and so unfair that it completely demotivates me to do anything. I finished high school 3 years ago, and since then, I feel like every year I am closer to finally saying "fuck this bullshit, I've had enough, it doesn't matter anyway" and then jumping off a bridge.
Why is life so unfair? What is the point of living like this, if you cannot do what you what but rather what you're forced to do? Some people are born into rich families and their whole life is a fucking dream. They are barely working but still they have massive amounts of money to spend on "entertainment", they sleep as long as they want, while other people have to wake up at 5 a.m. to just have money for food. It just kills me that I have to sacrifice my free time, my passions, my hobbies and I have to force myself to learn "useful" things which I completely don't like, simply because someone pays for them. No one will pay me for running or for playing a game or for playing football, but they will pay for something which I hate and despise but I still have to learn and do things I hate and despise because no one will pay me for something I like doing. It doesn't make sense. For real, why should I even bother. I won't be another Elon Musk etc, I will not "leave a mark" in the history and I can't even enjoy life because I cannot do things that I like. Instead of going hanging out with friends, I have to sit at the desk and "learn" fucking annoying stuff only because I do not want to work in a manual labor and I want to have a good office job, which requires learning annoying stuff.
To summarize, every now and then, I feel like giving up. If I was dead, at least I wouldn't have to deal with shitty people, with jobs, interviews, not getting enough sleep, illnesses, pressure (YOU ARE A MAN, YOU HAVE TO BE THIS AND THAT, YOU HAVE TO DO THIS AND THAT, IF YOU DON'T YOU ARE A PUSSY...), fear of not having enough money to for example visit a dentist if something bad happend with my teeth. Many people are saying "well, life isn't a fairly tale" - well, I do not care. I do not have to.
Seriously, if life is supposed to be like this, doing things that you don't like and having 2 evenings per week to be yourself, I might be better jumping off that bridge sooner rather than later".
"Apologies for any mistakes and for any inappropriate words, english is not my first language and I am just tired and frustrated. Basically everything in life is so random and so unfair that it completely demotivates me to do anything. I finished high school 3 years ago, and since then, I feel like every year I am closer to finally saying "fuck this bullshit, I've had enough, it doesn't matter anyway" and then jumping off a bridge.
Why is life so unfair? What is the point of living like this, if you cannot do what you what but rather what you're forced to do? Some people are born into rich families and their whole life is a fucking dream. They are barely working but still they have massive amounts of money to spend on "entertainment", they sleep as long as they want, while other people have to wake up at 5 a.m. to just have money for food. It just kills me that I have to sacrifice my free time, my passions, my hobbies and I have to force myself to learn "useful" things which I completely don't like, simply because someone pays for them. No one will pay me for running or for playing a game or for playing football, but they will pay for something which I hate and despise but I still have to learn and do things I hate and despise because no one will pay me for something I like doing. It doesn't make sense. For real, why should I even bother. I won't be another Elon Musk etc, I will not "leave a mark" in the history and I can't even enjoy life because I cannot do things that I like. Instead of going hanging out with friends, I have to sit at the desk and "learn" fucking annoying stuff only because I do not want to work in a manual labor and I want to have a good office job, which requires learning annoying stuff.
To summarize, every now and then, I feel like giving up. If I was dead, at least I wouldn't have to deal with shitty people, with jobs, interviews, not getting enough sleep, illnesses, pressure (YOU ARE A MAN, YOU HAVE TO BE THIS AND THAT, YOU HAVE TO DO THIS AND THAT, IF YOU DON'T YOU ARE A PUSSY...), fear of not having enough money to for example visit a dentist if something bad happend with my teeth. Many people are saying "well, life isn't a fairly tale" - well, I do not care. I do not have to.
Seriously, if life is supposed to be like this, doing things that you don't like and having 2 evenings per week to be yourself, I might be better jumping off that bridge sooner rather than later".
