Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,188
Honestly I don't feel like writing the details but just many things... yeah final straw for me was my Dad being insensitive AGAIN about my suicidality. Calling me a cunt bc I got upset with him, him telling my brother despite this being a big thing I've told/asked him mot to do. Them both minimizing it bc "it was his birthday" (he doesn't even care about b-days and now that I think about it they've treated me like garbage/triggered me on my b-days so I dunno why that matters) my father is 60 now he needs to grow the fuck up and not at my expense.
Im done. Family is shit and im not sacrificing the peace in my last moment's for em.
Haaa I'm just taking it easy this week. Low on cash till weekend. Cooking with what I got here... Not doing much or engaged in much. Tryna find a game to like play. I don't feel like engaging much with anyone anyway.
One of my worker's is off right now. So her replacement is bring very kind and "hopeful" to support. It doesn't make me feel any better bc she really will just realize thattttt I'm pretty hopeless.
Im just tired/over the cycle of suicidal amd not. Fighting for bits of life. I would like to try for N... just the thought of reslly
really dying as usual brings me peace. I am ready to give up. I welcome it. So much messages in life tell me to feel bad for feeling like I wanna CTB
But eh... anyway semi vent/update
Im done. Family is shit and im not sacrificing the peace in my last moment's for em.
Haaa I'm just taking it easy this week. Low on cash till weekend. Cooking with what I got here... Not doing much or engaged in much. Tryna find a game to like play. I don't feel like engaging much with anyone anyway.
One of my worker's is off right now. So her replacement is bring very kind and "hopeful" to support. It doesn't make me feel any better bc she really will just realize thattttt I'm pretty hopeless.
Im just tired/over the cycle of suicidal amd not. Fighting for bits of life. I would like to try for N... just the thought of reslly
really dying as usual brings me peace. I am ready to give up. I welcome it. So much messages in life tell me to feel bad for feeling like I wanna CTB
But eh... anyway semi vent/update