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The World Is Quiet Here
- Jan 23, 2019
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I wanted to share my experience with attempted Yew poisoning in the hopes that it will be of use to someone - for a purely academic purpose, of course. Obviously, I screwed up somewhere, so maybe someone here can figure out the cause of failure and not repeat it. Try not to make fun of me too terribly.
About a month ago I tried to CTB with this method. I'd read quite a bit on another website about Yew and how it was very toxic and would likely result in a quick death. I bought roughly a pound of Taxus Baccata (English Yew) seeds to make into a tincture. At the time I did the math and the number of seeds equaled out to much higher than the LD50 dose. I made the tincture as follows:
I crushed the seeds, put them in a large glass jar (I want to say it was a half-gallon jar - very large), and filled to the top with brandy. It was the strongest alcohol I had access to at the time, but a stronger one may have worked better.
After letting it sit for a month, shaking the jar every few days, I strained the seeds out through cheesecloth and simmered the liquid to try and get most of the alcohol out. It reduced to about 1/2 cup of liquid. I poured it into a clean jar and let it sit a few days longer.
The day I had meant to CTB, I took 30mg Metoclopramide every few hours. When it came time to do the deed, I was very anxious. My survival instinct was not about to let me drink this concoction, so I took two Klonopin and waited a bit. I calmed down after awhile and drank it in a few gulps. It was the worst thing I have ever tasted - very bitter and dry. If that's anything near what Nembutal tastes like I really do feel for the people that have to drink it. I drank a few sips of water to try and get the taste out of my mouth and laid down.
My heart was racing and I started to get very dizzy and tired. Other than that I didn't have any pain. I can't tell you with certainty how much time had passed, but it felt like at least an hour. I started to feel nauseous and the mixture just "came up". It wasn't puking like you'd typically think of. My reflex to wretch and gag was not there (probably the work of the Meto), but it went on forever. It felt like my stomach was empty and yet it would somehow find more to throw up.
I eventually went to sleep and woke up the next morning, very much alive. My heart was still racing and I was dizzy and lightheaded until dinnertime that evening. It wasn't exactly a pleasant experience, but not terrible considering how some overdoses go. I truly thought I would die when I drank it, so it was a disappointment that this method didn't work. I'm still emotionally drained from having attempted.
I have a few theories as to what I did wrong. The first and favorite theory is that the alcohol I used should have been stronger and I should have made certain that all of the alcohol was out of the mixture. I tasted some when I drank it, but it wasn't nearly as strong as what it should have been. Another theory is that I had the wrong kind of anti-emetic. I'm doubtful as to this one, but don't know enough to disprove it. I sincerely doubt that I didn't use enough seeds; if anything I probably used too many. There are reports of people dying from eating a handful of leaves - perhaps they weren't entirely accurate. At any rate, hopefully this will help someone else not to repeat my mistakes.
Feel free to ask any questions if you have them.
About a month ago I tried to CTB with this method. I'd read quite a bit on another website about Yew and how it was very toxic and would likely result in a quick death. I bought roughly a pound of Taxus Baccata (English Yew) seeds to make into a tincture. At the time I did the math and the number of seeds equaled out to much higher than the LD50 dose. I made the tincture as follows:
I crushed the seeds, put them in a large glass jar (I want to say it was a half-gallon jar - very large), and filled to the top with brandy. It was the strongest alcohol I had access to at the time, but a stronger one may have worked better.
After letting it sit for a month, shaking the jar every few days, I strained the seeds out through cheesecloth and simmered the liquid to try and get most of the alcohol out. It reduced to about 1/2 cup of liquid. I poured it into a clean jar and let it sit a few days longer.
The day I had meant to CTB, I took 30mg Metoclopramide every few hours. When it came time to do the deed, I was very anxious. My survival instinct was not about to let me drink this concoction, so I took two Klonopin and waited a bit. I calmed down after awhile and drank it in a few gulps. It was the worst thing I have ever tasted - very bitter and dry. If that's anything near what Nembutal tastes like I really do feel for the people that have to drink it. I drank a few sips of water to try and get the taste out of my mouth and laid down.
My heart was racing and I started to get very dizzy and tired. Other than that I didn't have any pain. I can't tell you with certainty how much time had passed, but it felt like at least an hour. I started to feel nauseous and the mixture just "came up". It wasn't puking like you'd typically think of. My reflex to wretch and gag was not there (probably the work of the Meto), but it went on forever. It felt like my stomach was empty and yet it would somehow find more to throw up.
I eventually went to sleep and woke up the next morning, very much alive. My heart was still racing and I was dizzy and lightheaded until dinnertime that evening. It wasn't exactly a pleasant experience, but not terrible considering how some overdoses go. I truly thought I would die when I drank it, so it was a disappointment that this method didn't work. I'm still emotionally drained from having attempted.
I have a few theories as to what I did wrong. The first and favorite theory is that the alcohol I used should have been stronger and I should have made certain that all of the alcohol was out of the mixture. I tasted some when I drank it, but it wasn't nearly as strong as what it should have been. Another theory is that I had the wrong kind of anti-emetic. I'm doubtful as to this one, but don't know enough to disprove it. I sincerely doubt that I didn't use enough seeds; if anything I probably used too many. There are reports of people dying from eating a handful of leaves - perhaps they weren't entirely accurate. At any rate, hopefully this will help someone else not to repeat my mistakes.
Feel free to ask any questions if you have them.
