BridgeJumper
The Arsonist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 1,194
Basically
I have lost respect for doctors.
I will never again treat doctors like human beings. I will never again trust to be properly examined and treated. I will not let myself be seen by a 'doctor' unless Im inches away from death. Fat chance
Some of The Best Of includes:
- Sewing up my arms from wrists down to elbows with no anesthesia and telling me its a punishment for being an attention seeker
- Pulling me out of the river after I jumped, waiting for me to wake up, tubes and all, only to lean in close and tell me I should go jump again and kill myself for real, and stop wasting their time. Also nurses coming into my room to rant about how I need to go away and stop wasting resources
- Making me sleep in my own vomit, for 15 hours. Changing the fucking bed is hard
- Telling me Im faking bipolar to get government money and I made up my trauma for attention
- Calling 911 about my vertigo and being told the problem is that Im high on drugs and need to stfu or they will give me a ticket for pointlessly calling an ambulance. When I literally couldnt stop throwing up / couldnt walk by myself
- A cardiologist running a 24h ECG on me and concluding that my heart rate of 180 is 'normal' Goodbye, next one
- ENT doctor Ive seen asking me about medications I take, and once I said lithium, referring me to psychiatrist. Because apparently having a mental illness means that its in all in my head.
- Cherry picking diagnoses to fit their agenda. BPD as a way to label me a manipulative drama queen. Fought 5 whole years to recognize my fucking obvious manic depression. My eating disorder is undiagnosed to this day because Im not skinny so that means Im fine right. And my alcohol addiction was only diagnosed after I went into withdrawal in the ward, also after 5 years of drinking.
- Being beaten in a mental hospital so badly my mother wanted examination by the police. Black eyes, busted lip, bruises and all. Refusing to show CCTV logs that showed me being beaten senseless by staff and patients. Only letting my parents see me with lights off so they cant assess injuries.
- Being threatened with 4 point restraints for crying
Basically whatever I do Im faking it. WIncing in pain while walking cause you know what, I jumped from a 15 meter bridge - 'patient shows exagerated pain responses'
Vomiting because of the dizziness - 'patient denies inducing the vomiting but its suspected'
When I have psychotic breaks and talk nonsense - 'Pseudodelusions / patient speaks terms that resemble delusions but really are not'
Suicidal = I want attention and if I really wanted to die I would have done it long ago.
Anything emotional - 'histrionic behaviour'
Like. I just want to sue their asses. Or at least write as many formal complaints as possible and hope their PR goes out the window.
And I will never trust anyone with a medical degree again,
The people that treated me are on par with Mengele and their smug ass attitude about it makes me homicidal.
Even a dentist visit makes me want to pay for them to put me under so I dont have to deal.
I have lost respect for doctors.
I will never again treat doctors like human beings. I will never again trust to be properly examined and treated. I will not let myself be seen by a 'doctor' unless Im inches away from death. Fat chance
Some of The Best Of includes:
- Sewing up my arms from wrists down to elbows with no anesthesia and telling me its a punishment for being an attention seeker
- Pulling me out of the river after I jumped, waiting for me to wake up, tubes and all, only to lean in close and tell me I should go jump again and kill myself for real, and stop wasting their time. Also nurses coming into my room to rant about how I need to go away and stop wasting resources
- Making me sleep in my own vomit, for 15 hours. Changing the fucking bed is hard
- Telling me Im faking bipolar to get government money and I made up my trauma for attention
- Calling 911 about my vertigo and being told the problem is that Im high on drugs and need to stfu or they will give me a ticket for pointlessly calling an ambulance. When I literally couldnt stop throwing up / couldnt walk by myself
- A cardiologist running a 24h ECG on me and concluding that my heart rate of 180 is 'normal' Goodbye, next one
- ENT doctor Ive seen asking me about medications I take, and once I said lithium, referring me to psychiatrist. Because apparently having a mental illness means that its in all in my head.
- Cherry picking diagnoses to fit their agenda. BPD as a way to label me a manipulative drama queen. Fought 5 whole years to recognize my fucking obvious manic depression. My eating disorder is undiagnosed to this day because Im not skinny so that means Im fine right. And my alcohol addiction was only diagnosed after I went into withdrawal in the ward, also after 5 years of drinking.
- Being beaten in a mental hospital so badly my mother wanted examination by the police. Black eyes, busted lip, bruises and all. Refusing to show CCTV logs that showed me being beaten senseless by staff and patients. Only letting my parents see me with lights off so they cant assess injuries.
- Being threatened with 4 point restraints for crying
Basically whatever I do Im faking it. WIncing in pain while walking cause you know what, I jumped from a 15 meter bridge - 'patient shows exagerated pain responses'
Vomiting because of the dizziness - 'patient denies inducing the vomiting but its suspected'
When I have psychotic breaks and talk nonsense - 'Pseudodelusions / patient speaks terms that resemble delusions but really are not'
Suicidal = I want attention and if I really wanted to die I would have done it long ago.
Anything emotional - 'histrionic behaviour'
Like. I just want to sue their asses. Or at least write as many formal complaints as possible and hope their PR goes out the window.
And I will never trust anyone with a medical degree again,
The people that treated me are on par with Mengele and their smug ass attitude about it makes me homicidal.
Even a dentist visit makes me want to pay for them to put me under so I dont have to deal.
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