J
JustWantItToStop
New Member
- Oct 22, 2019
- 2
I had been dating this girl for a year and a half and we broke up around September because of her cheating. She cheated on me multiple times and I forgave her multiple times. I forgave her because I wanted to help her, be with her and grow with her. She was my first everything... And we had been there for each other throughout, always together 24 7. She and I both had depression. However she tried to ctb a once or twice in our relationship. Anyways, she moved on from me really fast with a new guy, who she claimed to me was just a friend before we broke up. But I didn't trust her. I feel so empty now and feels like she has moved on and forgotten about me. As if I was just a toy and she got bored.
Here I am today still stuck hoping she would one day come back and love me again. I know that I should move on, but it seems impossible because I loved her so so so much. I have been having suicidal thoughts a lot lately and I feel like I'm the one that needs saving now. I feel lost and have no motivation to go on with my life. I can't stand suffering and watching my ex moving on and being happy with another person. I just can't cope anymore...
Here I am today still stuck hoping she would one day come back and love me again. I know that I should move on, but it seems impossible because I loved her so so so much. I have been having suicidal thoughts a lot lately and I feel like I'm the one that needs saving now. I feel lost and have no motivation to go on with my life. I can't stand suffering and watching my ex moving on and being happy with another person. I just can't cope anymore...