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- Aug 4, 2023
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Ive been having anorexia binge/purge subtype for the last 3 years. It has been on and off since I started therapy around a year ago, but as lately ive let myself go I gained a few kgs.
Now in the past few days my eating disorder thoughts are back and bad, I bough laxatives again (only used them a couple times before so ik by just that that it is bad), if I eat something real I throw it up, and not eat as much, or at least try.
It has always been very rare for me to have all of this together. Usually I just purge but not restrict, or restrict and purge, or restrict and use lax, binge and purge etc. But rarely does it hit like this.
I texted my therapist even tho she told me before she will not answer me since I got attached to her and its not good for me, and I get that, but Im really doing bad rn. Ofc she didnt respond. I wont see her for the next two weeks but ill see another one that is working at the same hospital but it is not the same, I dont have that same trust even tho I know that woman from ip stay.
Pls if you suffer with ED pls tell me how to make it not as painful and hard :/ either by overall giving me advice on how to stop, or literally give me advice on how to lose weight faster so I do not suffer longer than I need to. (Need to lose 7kg at least, would like 10kg) Restricting is so hard for me especially.
Now in the past few days my eating disorder thoughts are back and bad, I bough laxatives again (only used them a couple times before so ik by just that that it is bad), if I eat something real I throw it up, and not eat as much, or at least try.
It has always been very rare for me to have all of this together. Usually I just purge but not restrict, or restrict and purge, or restrict and use lax, binge and purge etc. But rarely does it hit like this.
I texted my therapist even tho she told me before she will not answer me since I got attached to her and its not good for me, and I get that, but Im really doing bad rn. Ofc she didnt respond. I wont see her for the next two weeks but ill see another one that is working at the same hospital but it is not the same, I dont have that same trust even tho I know that woman from ip stay.
Pls if you suffer with ED pls tell me how to make it not as painful and hard :/ either by overall giving me advice on how to stop, or literally give me advice on how to lose weight faster so I do not suffer longer than I need to. (Need to lose 7kg at least, would like 10kg) Restricting is so hard for me especially.
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