Story My DXM Experience

[xXSarac3nSlay3rXx]

I took 1500 mg of dextromethorphan (DXM) around 8:00 pm on Monday night. I had a couple reasons for doing this.

First, I don't have access to better drugs like psilocybin, LSD, or DMT. Second, I had recently read an article that described DXM as a potential treatment for depression. I don't have normal depression, but rather manic depression (bipolar II, if you will). I want to ctb and figure I might as well go balls to the wall and exhaust some of my other options before doing it. I was kind of hoping for some sort of introspective, psychedelic experience that would help bring me out of my depressive phase: that didn't happen. Lastly, as I near my death, I have become more interested in spirituality and the possibility of the afterlife. I consider myself an agnostic atheist, so while I don't actively believe in God or the afterlife, I like to keep an open mind. I have heard anecdotal reports of DXM causing out-of-body experiences at high doses, so I was curious to see if I would have such an experience.

My experience was not exactly the positive or introspective experience for which I was hoping. I took my dose around 8:00 pm on Monday. I watched YouTube and listened to music for about an hour or so. I began to realize that my music was sounding a lot better than usual. I didn't notice any hallucinations of any kind, but was still enjoying my music. I decided to head outside. I got up to walk outisde and felt a big disoriented and nauseous. I went back inside and promptly puked my guts out in the sink. Despite struggling with my motor function, I managed somehow managed to clean up the vomit. I decided I would gargle some salt water and chew some gum in order to clean out my mouth (not advisable to brush right after puking). I had the hardest time getting the gum out my wrapper and into my mouth.

By this time (don't know exactly when; I kind of lost track), my body felt like I was under some sort of anesthesthetic. My body seemed to move in robotic motions. I went to turn on my phone to listen to some music. After struggling for a bit, I was able to unlock it. I listened to various songs (mostly metal and electronica) for the remainder of my experience. I felt much more in tune with the music than I did normally, as if I had an enhanced sense of rhythm. In this headspace, I was absolutely enthralled by Meshugga's "Bleed." I went to the bathroom a couple more times, but didn't puke again, though I struggled to get up and walk when I did. At sometime around 4:00 am the next day, I decided to go to sleep.

When I woke up, there were pieces of gum all over my bedroom floor. I went to check the sink to see If I had actually puked, but it was pristinely clean. I guess I managed to somehow clean up despite being impaired. I checked the scale and weighed 161 lbs when I had weighed 170 lbs the morning before. I concluded that I must have been dehydrated from puking the night before. I felt a sort of aching muscle pain in my abdomen despite not having worked out at all recently. I just kind of feel out of it. I discussed some of these symtoms with my parents, but haven't told them about taking the DXM; they're concerned that I have the flu.

P.S.
I'm sorry for the rambling post, but I just wanted to share my experience. Maybe I'll try some other substances before offing myself: I don't have much of anything to lose anyway.

 

[Ken_Rosenberg]

i was thinking of taking some myself, was thinking about 200-450 mg. not sure yet. the anhedonia is getting worse.

 

[Pentobartbital]

Hey dude!

Glad to hear back from you.

As you discovered, dextromethorphan isn't psychedelic so much as it is dissociative. This would explain why some feel so detached from the body that they're doing loop-de-loops on the cosmic plane. Or numb enough to feel like they're not feeling much anything. Vomiting isn't uncommon, nor are multiple trips to the washroom. Personally I view these as cleansing albeit lightly distracting (at times perturbing) aspects of the trip.

Music takes on a different appraisal under DXM. One of the happiest experiences in my natural life was the result of guidance from an experienced user, my roommate at uni, one of the few people in this world I love more than myself or nearly anyone else. Another time was when I was outside in moccasins, shorts and a light jacket. Spring had just arrived, I was on break from university and was acutely keen of the light pouring down from above. Scene was mum's house, alone outside of the brick abode looking deep into the trees regaining their foliage, the grass returning verdant and nature reconstituting her lushness. I was free. So free. I sang the end of this song from memory:


Sitting in the park
Greeting the dawn
You tell all your stories
Checkout time, the concrete grass
I knew that you'd win
You're mine again

And what a fantastic morning
What a fantastic morning!


I felt contact with the ground as if I were a part of it. Like I was a plant, another part of the fields regrowing around me. There was no regret, or anger, or fear, or distress. No time. This and reading The Man in the High Castle had turnt me from a similarly agnostic-atheist position towards more spiritual and then religious ideals. It had placed in me the great desire to sing and speak to great effect in the midst of others.

For what it's worth, I'm happy you didn't have too bad a time. I wish it were somehow possible for us to partake together, or even connect my mind to yours and let you experience the crisp euphoria I'd beheld so long ago. As I'd told you before, Olney's lesions and a few bad trips got me out of the sirup, so here we are. I wish you the very best on your subsequent explorations, in this lifetime and that which lies beyond it.

 

[xXSarac3nSlay3rXx]

i was thinking of taking some myself, was thinking about 200-450 mg. not sure yet. the anhedonia is getting worse.

Yeah, that seems like a good dose to start out, but it depends on your body weight. I probably should have started with a dose in that ballpark, but I was feeling desperate.

 

[Pentobartbital]

Yeah, that seems like a good dose to start out, but it depends on your body weight. I probably should have started with a dose in that ballpark, but I was feeling desperate.

Yeah mang, like I told you before: if you can't say no, just stay low! You can always build up to higher plateaus once you establish your comfort levels. Don't be like me and take too much at once. My last two "visits" into a DXM-filtered world weren't as pleasant as I described above.

 

[xXSarac3nSlay3rXx]

Hey dude!

Glad to hear back from you.

As you discovered, dextromethorphan isn't psychedelic so much as it is dissociative. This would explain why some feel so detached from the body that they're doing loop-de-loops on the cosmic plane. Or numb enough to feel like they're not feeling much anything. Vomiting isn't uncommon, nor are multiple trips to the washroom. Personally I view these as cleansing albeit lightly distracting (at times perturbing) aspects of the trip.

Music takes on a different appraisal under DXM. One of the happiest experiences in my natural life was the result of guidance from an experienced user, my roommate at uni, one of the few people in this world I love more than myself or nearly anyone else. Another time was when I was outside in moccasins, shorts and a light jacket. Spring had just arrived, I was on break from university and was acutely keen of the light pouring down from above. Scene was mum's house, alone outside of the brick abode looking deep into the trees regaining their foliage, the grass returning verdant and nature reconstituting her lushness. I was free. So free. I sang the end of this song from memory:


Sitting in the park
Greeting the dawn
You tell all your stories
Checkout time, the concrete grass
I knew that you'd win
You're mine again

And what a fantastic morning
What a fantastic morning!


I felt contact with the ground as if I were a part of it. Like I was a plant, another part of the fields regrowing around me. There was no regret, or anger, or fear, or distress. No time. This and reading The Man in the High Castle had turnt me from a similarly agnostic-atheist position towards more spiritual and then religious ideals. It had placed in me the great desire to sing and speak to great effect in the midst of others.

For what it's worth, I'm happy you didn't have too bad a time. I wish it were somehow possible for us to partake together, or even connect my mind to yours and let you experience the crisp euphoria I'd beheld so long ago. As I'd told you before, Olney's lesions and a few bad trips got me out of the sirup, so here we are. I wish you the very best on your subsequent explorations, in this lifetime and that which lies beyond it.

Hey dude!

Glad to hear back from you.

As you discovered, dextromethorphan isn't psychedelic so much as it is dissociative. This would explain why some feel so detached from the body that they're doing loop-de-loops on the cosmic plane. Or numb enough to feel like they're not feeling much anything. Vomiting isn't uncommon, nor are multiple trips to the washroom. Personally I view these as cleansing albeit lightly distracting (at times perturbing) aspects of the trip.

Music takes on a different appraisal under DXM. One of the happiest experiences in my natural life was the result of guidance from an experienced user, my roommate at uni, one of the few people in this world I love more than myself or nearly anyone else. Another time was when I was outside in moccasins, shorts and a light jacket. Spring had just arrived, I was on break from university and was acutely keen of the light pouring down from above. Scene was mum's house, alone outside of the brick abode looking deep into the trees regaining their foliage, the grass returning verdant and nature reconstituting her lushness. I was free. So free. I sang the end of this song from memory:


Sitting in the park
Greeting the dawn
You tell all your stories
Checkout time, the concrete grass
I knew that you'd win
You're mine again

And what a fantastic morning
What a fantastic morning!


I felt contact with the ground as if I were a part of it. Like I was a plant, another part of the fields regrowing around me. There was no regret, or anger, or fear, or distress. No time. This and reading The Man in the High Castle had turnt me from a similarly agnostic-atheist position towards more spiritual and then religious ideals. It had placed in me the great desire to sing and speak to great effect in the midst of others.

For what it's worth, I'm happy you didn't have too bad a time. I wish it were somehow possible for us to partake together, or even connect my mind to yours and let you experience the crisp euphoria I'd beheld so long ago. As I'd told you before, Olney's lesions and a few bad trips got me out of the sirup, so here we are. I wish you the very best on your subsequent explorations, in this lifetime and that which lies beyond it.

Yeah, I wouldn't say my experience was all bad, but it wasn't exactly what I was looking for. Regardless, It was an interesting trip. I'm glad to hear that you had a good experience with this stuff. Thanks for your kind words!

Yeah mang, like I told you before: if you can't say no, just stay low! You can always build up to higher plateaus once you establish your comfort levels. Don't be like me and take too much at once. My last two "visits" into a DXM-filtered world weren't as pleasant as I described above.

I don't see myself taking such a high dose again. In fact, I don't exactly want to do DXM again. At the least, I won't be doing it again for a while.

 

[reveriewong]

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

 

[sunny cat]

no offense, but it sounds like you really should have done more research before using dxm. especially if you were expecting a therapeutic experience. 1500 mg is way, WAY too much for a 170 lb first time user... hell, i've used dxm pretty regularly for about a year and i still haven't gotten past a gram of HBr (instant release) dxm at once.

try using it in about 4-5 weeks, but take closer to 450 mg instead. and do more research on active ingredients to avoid and how to prepare for your trip, and how to get into the proper mindset for an introspective experience

 

[xXSarac3nSlay3rXx]

no offense, but it sounds like you really should have done more research before using dxm. especially if you were expecting a therapeutic experience. 1500 mg is way, WAY too much for a 170 lb first time user... hell, i've used dxm pretty regularly for about a year and i still haven't gotten past a gram of HBr (instant release) dxm at once.

try using it in about 4-5 weeks, but take closer to 450 mg instead. and do more research on active ingredients to avoid and how to prepare for your trip, and how to get into the proper mindset for an introspective experience

No offense taken, but I did do my research on which active ingredients to avoid. I consumed 1500 mg worth of liquid gels that contained DXM as their only active ingredient. I know to avoid acetaminophen, phenylephrine, etc. 1500 mg may be way too much, but a calculator I used indicated that 1500 mg would be at the higher end of the 4th plateau for my body weight.

While I know it may have been wiser to start with a smaller dose, I'm looking to kill myself in the next month or so; this is a suicide forum after all. If I'm going to die anyway, I'm inclined fo go "fuck it" and take a massive dose. If I'm still around in 4-5 weeks, I'll take your advice.

 

[sunny cat]

No offense taken, but I did do my research on which active ingredients to avoid. I consumed 1500 mg worth of liquid gels that contained DXM as their only active ingredient. I know to avoid acetaminophen, phenylephrine, etc. 1500 mg may be way too much, but a calculator I used indicated that 1500 mg would be at the higher end of the 4th plateau for my body weight.

While I know it may have been wiser to start with a smaller dose, I'm looking to kill myself in the next month or so; this is a suicide forum afterall. If I'm going to die anyway, I'm inclined fo go "fuck it" and take a massive dose. If I'm still around in 4-5 weeks, I'll take your advice.

glad to hear you used the right products. tbh that's better than most people trying to experiment with it.

i kinda meant the dose wrt how your brain can handle it. it doesn't have much of a difference on how unhealthy it is physically, but going for an upper 4th plat would more than likely be completely unenjoyable for a newcomer. i get not caring about your health though, and honestly if you really just want to try again before you cbt then you can ignore the part about waiting. that's more for tolerance control and health, and i don't think anyone on here would be too concerned about that lmao

sorry if i'm coming off as annoying btw, i'm just genuinely interested in pharmacology and i try to help people out with self medicating when i can.

 

[xXSarac3nSlay3rXx]

glad to hear you used the right products. tbh that's better than most people trying to experiment with it.

i kinda meant the dose wrt how your brain can handle it. it doesn't have much of a difference on how unhealthy it is physically, but going for an upper 4th plat would more than likely be completely unenjoyable for a newcomer. i get not caring about your health though, and honestly if you really just want to try again before you cbt then you can ignore the part about waiting. that's more for tolerance control and health, and i don't think anyone on here would be too concerned about that lmao

sorry if i'm coming off as annoying btw, i'm just genuinely interested in pharmacology and i try to help people out with self medicating when i can.

It's no problem. I'm hardly an expert in pharmacology, so I tend to defer to others for that sort of thing. In light of what you're saying, I may go ahead and try again before ctbing. Would you still recommend the same dose? Also, do you have any advice for preventing nausea and vomiting? I feel like my trip would have gone better had I not puked. Maybe I'll fast for a couple days before my next time. Fasting usually improves my mood to some degree anyway. You aren't annoying. Though I don't have much concern for my own safety anymore, it's good to know that others are concerned about my safety!

 

[Your Own Ghost]

I've been thinking about this lately. I last did it probably like 10 years ago and it feels like the forbidden journey I went on. With my headphones on and lying in the dark, the first time I saw a sort of death procession going down a road. In a weird way, it felt like the procession was there to honor me being there. The second time, some months later, I found myself outside the closed gates of that city with the music far away and I had the feeling that I wasn't supposed to be there again. It's a dream that never left me.

But anyway, since DXM is technically legal in the states, there's a product out there called Robocough that's supposed to be just a concentrated version of DXM so you don't have to chug a whole bottle of Robotussin. Use that information how you see fit, I guess.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I took 1500 mg of dextromethorphan (DXM) around 8:00 pm on Monday night. I had a couple reasons for doing this.

First, I don't have access to better drugs like psilocybin, LSD, or DMT. Second, I had recently read an article that described DXM as a potential treatment for depression. I don't have normal depression, but rather manic depression (bipolar II, if you will). I want to ctb and figure I might as well go balls to the wall and exhaust some of my other options before doing it. I was kind of hoping for some sort of introspective, psychedelic experience that would help bring me out of my depressive phase: that didn't happen. Lastly, as I near my death, I have become more interested in spirituality and the possibility of the afterlife. I consider myself an agnostic atheist, so while I don't actively believe in God or the afterlife, I like to keep an open mind. I have heard anecdotal reports of DXM causing out-of-body experiences at high doses, so I was curious to see if I would have such an experience.

My experience was not exactly the positive or introspective experience for which I was hoping. I took my dose around 8:00 pm on Monday. I watched YouTube and listened to music for about an hour or so. I began to realize that my music was sounding a lot better than usual. I didn't notice any hallucinations of any kind, but was still enjoying my music. I decided to head outside. I got up to walk outisde and felt a big disoriented and nauseous. I went back inside and promptly puked my guts out in the sink. Despite struggling with my motor function, I managed somehow managed to clean up the vomit. I decided I would gargle some salt water and chew some gum in order to clean out my mouth (not advisable to brush right after puking). I had the hardest time getting the gum out my wrapper and into my mouth.

By this time (don't know exactly when; I kind of lost track), my body felt like I was under some sort of anesthesthetic. My body seemed to move in robotic motions. I went to turn on my phone to listen to some music. After struggling for a bit, I was able to unlock it. I listened to various songs (mostly metal and electronica) for the remainder of my experience. I felt much more in tune with the music than I did normally, as if I had an enhanced sense of rhythm. In this headspace, I was absolutely enthralled by Meshugga's "Bleed." I went to the bathroom a couple more times, but didn't puke again, though I struggled to get up and walk when I did. At sometime around 4:00 am the next day, I decided to go to sleep.

When I woke up, there were pieces of gum all over my bedroom floor. I went to check the sink to see If I had actually puked, but it was pristinely clean. I guess I managed to somehow clean up despite being impaired. I checked the scale and weighed 161 lbs when I had weighed 170 lbs the morning before. I concluded that I must have been dehydrated from puking the night before. I felt a sort of aching muscle pain in my abdomen despite not having worked out at all recently. I just kind of feel out of it. I discussed some of these symtoms with my parents, but haven't told them about taking the DXM; they're concerned that I have the flu.

P.S.
I'm sorry for the rambling post, but I just wanted to share my experience. Maybe I'll try some other substances before offing myself: I don't have much of anything to lose anyway.

If you want real psychedelics check out Dream Marketplace. You need tor browser to access it. I've brought psychedelics form there before. You have to use bitcoins to buy.

 

[xXSarac3nSlay3rXx]

If you want real psychedelics check out Dream Marketplace. You need tor browser to access it. I've brought psychedelics form there before. You have to use bitcoins to buy.

I might. It's just so much of a hassle to buy drugs illegally. Thanks for the info anyway.

 

[sunny cat]

It's no problem. I'm hardly an expert in pharmacology, so I tend to defer to others for that sort of thing. In light of what you're saying, I may go ahead and try again before ctbing. Would you still recommend the same dose? Also, do you have any advice for preventing nausea and vomiting? I feel like my trip would have gone better had I not puked. Maybe I'll fast for a couple days before my next time. Fasting usually improves my mood to some degree anyway. You aren't annoying. Though I don't have much concern for my own safety anymore, it's good to know that others are concerned about my safety!

yeah, i'd probably recommend the same dose. someone else already mentioned it but if you can get a product called robocough, one bottle of that is a pretty ideal dose for what you're looking for i believe, and the lack of additives and small amount of liquid (i think it's about the size of a 5 hour energy?) can make it easier to take. i haven't found a place to buy it in stores though, so you'd have to order it online.

the nausea is almost a necessary evil, though. some people are more or less sensitive to it than others. i've heard mixed opinions on whether or not taking 50 mg of dph (benadryl) about an hour/half hour beforehand can help, but to me it's usually helped me keep it down. i also recommend sipping mint or ginger tea on the come-up, because it's natural anti-nausea (and in my experience, the relaxing ritual of drinking it can calm you down and give you a really nice mindset to start the trip)

i really hope dxm can help, or at least make these last few weeks a bit easier. last summer i had a lot of really insightful experiences with this drug that actually made me not want to ctb for a little bit. feel free to ask anything else or pm me if you want some more advice (-: