Venting my death will be by train in luz station in são paulo

[unnaturalmovement]

I got 4 grams of mushrooms, a bit of cocaine and a lot of xanax for this day. Its all on my stack waiting the end of the month, 2 days prior to my surgery.
I'll consume the mushrooms to set the mood, then take xanax to cut the psychedelia and then snort a bit of coke to muster courage to jump in the right time.

I have flashes in my head of this day, lots of sounds coming to my head while i fall asleep sometimes i wonder if i already did it and somehow came back, but i just know it'll happen.

I'll jump quick on the turn, right on the beginning of the platform, not in the middle, then go to the floor and position my body straight on the rails, so i can be split in two or really dillacerated in an instant.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

That's certainly a painful, but quick way, to CTB. It's good to plan the time of the day you'll do it, considering it'll bring a lot of attention and some damage for the passengers. Anyway, if a peaceful method - SN - fails, I intend to do like you, or jump from a big height (I'm either from SP ;D)

 

[unnaturalmovement]

I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

thank you

That's certainly a painful, but quick way, to CTB. It's good to plan the time of the day you'll do it, considering it'll bring a lot of attention and some damage for the passengers. Anyway, if a peaceful method - SN - fails, I intend to do like you, or jump from a big height (I'm either from SP ;D)

well i plan to do it around 4 to 5am.
i live nearby the capital and i'll do a check in on a hotel one day before, telling my family im going to see some friends
i dont know the exacts but i'll be sure to not jump close to anyone, and as i said, on the beginning of the platform. to make sure i dont bump on anyone i'll stay on the last wagon when reaching luz, and i'll not move from there till the right time to jump.

do you think its painful? i'm thinking its going to be really fast since im gonna put my head on the rails.
once i hear the sound coming i'll just position myself quickly.

anyway i'll probably be anesthesiated by xanax and shrooms so idk...

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

Please don't do it like the woman in the video if you're certain about death rsrsrsrsrs And for the painful thing, well, you're gonna be hit by a train, it must hurt as hell (but only for a few seconds). Saw a graphic on "The complete manual of suicide" by Wataru Tsurumi that gave a high rate for impact, I guess. If you want, I can look for the source.

 

[unnaturalmovement]

Please don't do it like the woman in the video if you're certain about death rsrsrsrsrs And for the painful thing, well, you're gonna be hit by a train, it must hurt as hell (but only for a few seconds). Saw a graphic on "The complete manual of suicide" by Wataru Tsurumi that gave a high rate for impact, I guess. If you want, I can look for the source.

i'd appreciate that

i've had other methodws of dying, one of them including hiking a mountain with an active volcano then throwing myself there. pretty punk if you think lol
but seriously not easy tho being hit by lava would kill me instantly

 

[snwcolt]

Not gonna lie... this sounds like a bad idea bro. You're making detailed plans with potentially bad fucking consequences that you want to execute while on hallucinogens. Rail suicides are very ugly when they don't go just right and the shrooms seem like a wild card to me

 

[unnaturalmovement]

Not gonna lie... this sounds like a bad idea bro. You're making detailed plans with potentially bad fucking consequences that you want to execute while on hallucinogens. Rail suicides are very ugly when they don't go just right and the shrooms seem like a wild card to me

i've been thinking about it and death by train is a bit imprecise in its execution. if i managed to put my head on the rails before it starts, right after people have entered then i would have a success without much problem, but in reality it could play in so many ways.

after more reflection i feel like rope + jumping from a tree will suit me best. snapping the neck and all or just really jumping

im scared :(

 

[snwcolt]

Same here. There's a freight train that runs by near my house and I've thought about lying on the tracks but it seems like a terrifying way to go. Really getting frustrated with my lack of options