My death day is 100 days away!

[Duochrome-Seahorse]

I think it's been over 3 months since I planned the date of when I CBT and the closer I get to it the more confident I am in following thru. The best time to go and I'll have enough money to do the things I wanna do before I go!

I've thought about all the cons of dying in a few months but this is the first time I planned a date and I don't want to change it! It's so exciting actually because I'm not as young anymore so that FOMO doesn't get to me anymore.

It doesn't matter if I die, everyone is gonna go about their day as if it never happened, and that brings me so much comfort. Knowing that not everyone knows how to react to death makes me relieved because that means no one is going to cry at my funeral, hopefully, or I'll be kinda embarrassed. Oh well.

I think about how people treated me then and now and I don't feel bad for leaving them behind. Matter of fact, I think this is something they secretly wanted me to do instead of venting everyday, so everyone is getting what they want! Winner winner chicken dinner!

 

[Letgo]

I wish you the best. May you have peace and ccx rest. Pls let us know how are you doing as the date is getting closer (of course if you want to!).
You will be thought of.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I wish you a peaceful transition.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[▪︎⚠ ＫＯＨＩ ⚠▪︎]

I wish you luck and hope you can rest from all the things that might have made you take this decision.

 

[Suncide]

I'm curious how you planned your method ... which method have u chosen?

 

[BadDragon621]

I wish you success in your departure

 

[Worndown]

Work your plan. I hope all goes well.

 

[woh6]

Good to hear you're confident in your decision. I wish you the best for the next 100 days and good luck.

 

[Duochrome-Seahorse]

I'm curious how you planned your method ... which method have u chosen?

I'm planning on going on a train track near my house and getting decapitatedby a train. Its the worse possible death, but its the most convenient distance wise. I walk far enough into the countryside that no one but the coyotes find me, lay on an active rail, pass myself out and wait. For now, I havent thought of what can really sedate me during this, but I know where I'm going as ive been to the place before.

If that method doesn't work I'll go to the forest nearby and suffocate myself with the strangling method I saw a few weeks ago.

If that doesn't work I'll go into a lake and drown, but that's more of a desperate measure as not feeling the bottom of a lake or pool makes me panic.

If I do get caught I'm fucked cuz idk what to really do at that point because they're just gonna throw me into an institution. But honestly dying in an institution doesn't seem that hard. I was able to smuggle some blankets, but it was too thick to use as rope.

I'm just hoping I don't fuck up this time. This time, I will make sure everything goes to plan.