So I know when it will happen unless some big change happens that I don't see in the future for me. I have several months, Never know for sure but I lost all that was important to me. Friends are few but one or two do remain. They can't do anything. Thinking , what to write.... Sorry. Do I want to call them? Tell anyone sorry? Will the 1 that matters most kiss my cheek goodbye ? Do I need that? Do they? I stopped writing because sorry is all I could say and tell them if you want to see me be better come soon because I leaving. Then I thought of the song from Billie Eilish. The lyrics to that are almost perfect since it is almost exactly what I am trying to say. So I write note again and save music song video on sd card for that one to see and hear. After I am gone. Is it fair to the one matters most? Should I do it ? I wont be here to care but it is the caring before leaving here that brings the tears. I have no fear. I believe way over there I will be free and happy and finally have real Peace. I believe in God but my faith says that God will Never punish those who suffer and or are ill with pain , suffering beyond their mortal strengths.. I will be delivered into my Peace. But that is my faith.
Think I will let Billi Eillish Finish this. Peace.
Listen Before I go......
Take me to the rooftop
I wanna see the world when I stop breathing
Turning blue
Tell me, love is endless, don't be so pretentious
Leave me, like you do (like you do)
If you need me
Wanna see me
Better hurry
'Cause I'm leaving soon
Sorry, can't save me now
Sorry, I don't know how
Sorry, there's no way out (sorry)
But down, mm down
Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek
That's what a year-long headache does to you
I'm not okay, I feel so scattered
Don't say I'm all that matters
Leave me
Deja vu
If you need me
Wanna see me
You better hurry
I'm leaving soon
Sorry, can't save me now
Sorry, I don't know how (sorry)
Sorry, there's no way out (sorry)
But down, mm down
Call my friends and tell
Them that I love them
And I'll miss them
But I'm not sorry
Call my friends and tell them that I love them
And I'll miss them
Sorry
Think I will let Billi Eillish Finish this. Peace.
Listen Before I go......
Take me to the rooftop
I wanna see the world when I stop breathing
Turning blue
Tell me, love is endless, don't be so pretentious
Leave me, like you do (like you do)
If you need me
Wanna see me
Better hurry
'Cause I'm leaving soon
Sorry, can't save me now
Sorry, I don't know how
Sorry, there's no way out (sorry)
But down, mm down
Taste me, the salty tears on my cheek
That's what a year-long headache does to you
I'm not okay, I feel so scattered
Don't say I'm all that matters
Leave me
Deja vu
If you need me
Wanna see me
You better hurry
I'm leaving soon
Sorry, can't save me now
Sorry, I don't know how (sorry)
Sorry, there's no way out (sorry)
But down, mm down
Call my friends and tell
Them that I love them
And I'll miss them
But I'm not sorry
Call my friends and tell them that I love them
And I'll miss them
Sorry
