Venting My dad said: "Do it"

[SelfKill]

My dad got extremely drunk today. My mom and me fought so much. I never experienced this much domestic violence ever. My mental health -50% because of this day.

He said that if we leave him, we won't even be able to eat (not true), I said that: "I don't care, because I will kill myself.", He replied: "Do it, there is rope in the backyard.". Then my mom immediately ran into the bedroom and punched him.

This is my breaking point, there is no recovery after this point. He didn't acknowledge it, but he doesn't remember anything too.

I was crying for the fifth time since 2020.

Then he was mf-ing about all kinds of bullshit:
"When I die, and go to heaven or hell, God will forgive me" (He won't if you act like this, and don't say "sorry")

Spoiler: NSFW

"I fucked every pussy(girl) I saw!" and "I cheat you(mom) everyday"
(he has a weak jawline, and is overweight-ish (just like me), he has no chances)

He also said that he will help me commit suicide, which he won't, he is just a alcoholic drunk idiot.
I can't believe that when I was 0-4 years old he was always like this.

I know I don't deserve empathy or any support (or even a place here), but thanks for reading!

 

[DeathWish3301]

Hey there. I'm sorry you're Dad is a POS. I get it.

I'm NC with both of my parents because they're abusive narcissists that essentially destroyed my life.

One time I was hospitalized for an attempt they somehow found out, still don't know how. Neither of said anything like "I'm glad you're okay", "Thank God you're still alive", etc. Nothing. They didn't care. Didn't come visit me, nothing.

Another time I texted my Dad from the ICU after downing three bottles of meds. Told him thanks for abandoning me, abusing me and giving me the mental health problems I have.

He says "I know, nothing is ever you're doing. Wish you well, good night."

Couldn't care less that I had just tried to kill myself a few hours beforehand.

Just saying my parents wouldn't give a fuck if I died either. Wouldn't wish it on anyone.

 

[gazap]

you do deserve empathy and support. Im so sorry to hear of your struggles and I wish I could be there to hug you. I cant imagine being in such a toxic environment. Do you have anyone outside of your family who can support you emotionally? how old are you? Are you financially able to move out? Reach out to me anytime if you wanna chat. Much love to you

 

[SelfKill]

Hey there. I'm sorry you're Dad is a POS. I get it.

I'm NC with both of my parents because they're abusive narcissists that essentially destroyed my life.

One time I was hospitalized for an attempt they somehow found out, still don't know how. Neither of said anything like "I'm glad you're okay", "Thank God you're still alive", etc. Nothing. They didn't care. Didn't come visit me, nothing.

Another time I texted my Dad from the ICU after downing three bottles of meds. Told him thanks for abandoning me, abusing me and giving me the mental health problems I have.

He says "I know, nothing is ever you're doing. Wish you well, good night."

Couldn't care less that I had just tried to kill myself a few hours beforehand.

Just saying my parents wouldn't give a fuck if I died either. Wouldn't wish it on anyone.

I hope you are doing better.

you do deserve empathy and support. Im so sorry to hear of your struggles and I wish I could be there to hug you. I cant imagine being in such a toxic environment. Do you have anyone outside of your family who can support you emotionally? how old are you? Are you financially able to move out? Reach out to me anytime if you wanna chat. Much love to you

Thank you! Yes I have people who can support me, but I don't think I could talk about these.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

My dad got extremely drunk today. My mom and me fought so much. I never experienced this much domestic violence ever. My mental health -50% because of this day.

He said that if we leave him, we won't even be able to eat (not true), I said that: "I don't care, because I will kill myself.", He replied: "Do it, there is rope in the backyard.". Then my mom immediately ran into the bedroom and punched him.

This is my breaking point, there is no recovery after this point. He didn't acknowledge it, but he doesn't remember anything too.

I was crying for the fifth time since 2020.

Then he was mf-ing about all kinds of bullshit:
"When I die, and go to heaven or hell, God will forgive me" (He won't if you act like this, and don't say "sorry")

Spoiler: NSFW

"I fucked every pussy(girl) I saw!" and "I cheat you(mom) everyday"
(he has a weak jawline, and is overweight-ish (just like me), he has no chances)

He also said that he will help me commit suicide, which he won't, he is just a alcoholic drunk idiot.
I can't believe that when I was 0-4 years old he was always like this.

I know I don't deserve empathy or any support (or even a place here), but thanks for reading!

You deserve empathy and support. That's something your dad should have never said drunk or not.

 

[iloverachel]

I am so sorry you had to go through that. It is truly awful what you had to go through
We are here for you my friend

 

[rozeske]

You do deserve empathy and support. I'm so sorry, this are the parents you are dealt with, no one deserves to be told to die especially from the people that chose to bring them into this world. I never really understand how it helps parents when they say those hurtful things and gaslight you into thinking all of it is your fault. It never gets easier no matter how repeatedly you hear them say those things. It would help if you can try to give yourself a space by moving, before you are fully sucked into the darkness they are creating.

 

[untothedepths]

Please don;t blame yourself for the shitness that your father is. He's a broken, insecure man who needs to punch down on others to feel any sort of version of alive. He needs a good asswhooping or some other form of a reality check. I would call the police on him, fuck him. He can rot in jail. But please - stop blaming yourself. I doubt you do anything to make him an abusive little piece of shit.

 

[SelfKill]

Please don;t blame yourself for the shitness that your father is. He's a broken, insecure man who needs to punch down on others to feel any sort of version of alive. He needs a good asswhooping or some other form of a reality check. I would call the police on him, fuck him. He can rot in jail. But please - stop blaming yourself. I doubt you do anything to make him an abusive little piece of shit.

I didn't do anything. I always want to call the police, but im terrified about what other family members will think.

 

[sppplmgwiwlkiwbtft]

My dad got extremely drunk today. My mom and me fought so much. I never experienced this much domestic violence ever. My mental health -50% because of this day.

He said that if we leave him, we won't even be able to eat (not true), I said that: "I don't care, because I will kill myself.", He replied: "Do it, there is rope in the backyard.". Then my mom immediately ran into the bedroom and punched him.

This is my breaking point, there is no recovery after this point. He didn't acknowledge it, but he doesn't remember anything too.

I was crying for the fifth time since 2020.

Then he was mf-ing about all kinds of bullshit:
"When I die, and go to heaven or hell, God will forgive me" (He won't if you act like this, and don't say "sorry")

Spoiler: NSFW

"I fucked every pussy(girl) I saw!" and "I cheat you(mom) everyday"
(he has a weak jawline, and is overweight-ish (just like me), he has no chances)

He also said that he will help me commit suicide, which he won't, he is just a alcoholic drunk idiot.
I can't believe that when I was 0-4 years old he was always like this.

I know I don't deserve empathy or any support (or even a place here), but thanks for reading!

I'm really sorry for you, I'm sorry he's an asshole. No one except for you has any right to decide whether you should live or die. Don't listen to him, he really is just a drunk POS who just wanted to hurt you with his words. I know this feeling, my dad also tells me to "finally do it" and offers to "help with it" when I'm breaking down and talking about suicide.

 

[theboy]

Ignore it. He doesn't know what he's doing or what he's saying

 

[Confront4283]

He's drunk and doesn't understand the weight of his words. I bet he does remember and that guilt eats away at him, which is why he drinks. It's a viscous cycle.

 

[SelfKill]

He's drunk and doesn't understand the weight of his words. I bet he does remember and that guilt eats away at him, which is why he drinks. It's a viscous cycle.

He is clean since then. actually