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Nephy
I was only temporarily…
- Jul 17, 2024
- 57
I've finished my last project two days ago and feel so lost now that nothing holds me any longer in this world. I can feel it's time to go.
So I already have my SN (tested!) and Doperidone to avoid vomiting from my doctor and I bought some paracetamol (ibuprofen always makes me
so I avoid)
I will take 3x 10mg doperidone the day before and start fasting the day before.
I am underweight - that's why I'm not sure about how much SN I should take
I found this and it says between 16 and 17g should be enough but I really don't want to risk anything by using not enough ..so maybe 20g and I will prepare 3 drinks (in case I vomit)
I'm really not satisfied with the paracetamol but I don't have access to something stronger .. maybe I will smoke a joint to calm down a bit more ? (I smoke regularly cannabis since some weeks) or I ask my doctor again today for something .. last time he gave me quetiapine but since I have doperidone I think it's useless.![Woman shrugging: medium-light skin tone :woman_shrugging_tone2: 🤷🏼♀️](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f937-1f3fc-2640.png)
My last thoughts are if I should organize my burial .. I would like to rest under a tree in a Woodland cemetery - but I'm not sure how long it would take to organize this and I can feel that I will only survive some days .. I'm so tired and powerless..
I will update this thread and I'm thankful for your thoughts
These are some of the images I created last days to show how I feel .. the last one is ready to ctb.
So I already have my SN (tested!) and Doperidone to avoid vomiting from my doctor and I bought some paracetamol (ibuprofen always makes me
![Nauseated face :nauseated_face: 🤢](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f922.png)
I will take 3x 10mg doperidone the day before and start fasting the day before.
I am underweight - that's why I'm not sure about how much SN I should take
![Thinking face :thinking: 🤔](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f914.png)
![IMG 7924 IMG 7924](https://i.sanctioned-suicide.net/images/2024/08/thumb/208614_IMG_7924.jpeg)
I found this and it says between 16 and 17g should be enough but I really don't want to risk anything by using not enough ..so maybe 20g and I will prepare 3 drinks (in case I vomit)
I'm really not satisfied with the paracetamol but I don't have access to something stronger .. maybe I will smoke a joint to calm down a bit more ? (I smoke regularly cannabis since some weeks) or I ask my doctor again today for something .. last time he gave me quetiapine but since I have doperidone I think it's useless.
![Woman shrugging: medium-light skin tone :woman_shrugging_tone2: 🤷🏼♀️](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f937-1f3fc-2640.png)
My last thoughts are if I should organize my burial .. I would like to rest under a tree in a Woodland cemetery - but I'm not sure how long it would take to organize this and I can feel that I will only survive some days .. I'm so tired and powerless..
I will update this thread and I'm thankful for your thoughts
![Thought balloon :thought_balloon: 💭](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f4ad.png)
![Nephtys s a person dark blonde with shaved side cut hair decid 9c316284 6147 414d 8ccc 69c4c9 Nephtys s a person dark blonde with shaved side cut hair decid 9c316284 6147 414d 8ccc 69c4c9](https://i.sanctioned-suicide.net/images/2024/08/thumb/208615_nephtys__s_a_person_dark_blonde_with_shaved_side-cut_hair_decid_9c316284-6147-414d-8ccc-69c4c9...png)
![Nephtys s full body view dark art inner suicidal conflict desp 824cded9 c282 4f50 a155 a69f5b Nephtys s full body view dark art inner suicidal conflict desp 824cded9 c282 4f50 a155 a69f5b](https://i.sanctioned-suicide.net/images/2024/08/thumb/208617_nephtys__s_full_body_view_dark_art_inner_suicidal_conflict_desp_824cded9-c282-4f50-a155-a69f5b...png)
![Nephtys s full body view dark art inner suicidal conflict desp d3c5045d b69d 4895 b550 6f4c17 Nephtys s full body view dark art inner suicidal conflict desp d3c5045d b69d 4895 b550 6f4c17](https://i.sanctioned-suicide.net/images/2024/08/thumb/208616_nephtys__s_full_body_view_dark_art_inner_suicidal_conflict_desp_d3c5045d-b69d-4895-b550-6f4c17...png)
These are some of the images I created last days to show how I feel .. the last one is ready to ctb.