mutething
questioning what to do
- Jun 12, 2023
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I am 21 years old and have been diagnosed with selective mutism (I am UNABLE to speak 70% of the time. I can only physically talk to three people in my life due to aniexty. Even then I can not speak most of the time even to the people I love most due to my aniexty), autism, and C-PTSD from years of mistreatment due to my disability and queerness. My quality of life is degrading. I am trying to implement AAC (Alternative and Augmentative Communication) so I can pass through daily life. However, I have horrible imposter syndrome and internalize ableism like I don't deserve these things because I can talk on occasion with people in my home, but not outside. Because I feel like a inconvenience to everyone so I just stay inside and do nothing.
I have struggled with this on and off since I was first diagnosed at 6. I feel hopeless. I can't get employed anywhere. I don't even think I could keep a job even if I wanted to. I am really trying to push it through but I have been researching my methods of CTB because this life is unbareable even on several medications (I have tried many)
Thank you for taking time to read this & god speed.
I have struggled with this on and off since I was first diagnosed at 6. I feel hopeless. I can't get employed anywhere. I don't even think I could keep a job even if I wanted to. I am really trying to push it through but I have been researching my methods of CTB because this life is unbareable even on several medications (I have tried many)
Thank you for taking time to read this & god speed.
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