Discussion My BPD makes me semi-suicidal constantly.

[lunarpixels]

Like, it's an odd thing to think about, but like, a typical evening for me is either gaming or just kind of sitting around, thinking of all aspects of death. Oddly enough, it's the only way I can get by living. Tonight, I plan on drinking and writing to the ends of the earth about my philosophical view on death and suicide and why I feel it's not selfish.

I can't help but wonder if it's because I've witnessed so many violent things in life. It doesn't matter to me, anyways. Part of me wonders if I stop supressing the thoughts... Would I finally CTB?

 

[exhaustedanonymous]

I feel you. I'm in a similar boat, I think. Somehow no matter what train of thought I have, it always ends at suicide, but not in a panicky way just.. logical conclusion. You know? I have so many mood swings and they've been getting worse but even on the good days in good moods I still think I'd probably kill myself if I could.

 

[ExistHarm]

its people like us who are victims of society's relentless pro-life culture. it is ok to have a toxic relationship with your life; it is ok to want to end it. please take care of yourself until you allow yourself to exit...