Story My boy is home !

[Lara Francis]

Hi
I been having trouble logging on so my apologies for not being able to post sooner.
As some of you are aware ,i have been fighting to stay alive and have my son returned to my care.
I am so pleased to say that he came home on monday.
its lovely to have him back and he is thrilled to be home.
We have a lot of things to work through as the care proceedings have not been without mental and emotional strains on us both.we need to regain that strong bond we once had and i really do hope this is possible.
For now ,i will give life 100% for my son.i wish i could want to live for me but i am not at that stage yet and maybe i never will be and suicide maybe an option later on in his life when he is more able to cope with my loss ,but for now i will take each day,try to make plans,share and make dreams.
I will remain on here because when i was unable to log on ,i felt as if i had lost a body part!
I love this community,some things i take with a pinch of salt but their are some genuinely kind, caring and compassionate souls here who i find a priviledge to talk to.
There are those pro lifers that critizise these forums ( outside of this community) and do not understand the friendships and support we give to one other which i know we are all thankful for.
Love to you my friends and i wish you well xx

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Awesome to hear! Best of luck with your newfound motivation. Wishing you and your son much love and happiness.

 

[15dec]

That's wonderful news! Best of luck to you and your son and I hope things go amazingly for you both. Hugs ♡

 

[Sinbad]

Soo happy for you :')

 

[JustAboutDone]

I hoped so much that was the case - especially when you didn't sign on on Monday I hoped and hoped it was because you were busy with your boy. Am so thrilled for you, I bet you just want to watch him constantly and touch him to check he's real :-)

 

[Lara Francis]

I hoped so much that was the case - especially when you didn't sign on on Monday I hoped and hoped it was because you were busy with your boy. Am so thrilled for you, I bet you just want to watch him constantly and touch him to check he's real :-)

I watch him whilst he is sleeping.i told him that yesterday and he told me that was just weird ! and i recieve lots of spontanious hugs throughout the day.
I tried so many times to log on and was getting really frustrated.
Thankyou for your thoughts xx

 

[Lara Francis]

Awesome to hear! Best of luck with your newfound motivation. Wishing you and your son much love and happiness.

Thankyou.hoping you are ok x

 

[JustAboutDone]

I watch him whilst he is sleeping.i told him that yesterday and he told me that was just weird ! and i recieve lots of spontanious hugs throughout the day.
I tried so many times to log on and was getting really frustrated.
Thankyou for your thoughts xx

Awww :-) it is the loveliest thing to watch your children when they are sleeping and they look so peaceful. It is like balm for the soul

 

[Lara Francis]

Soo happy for you :')

Thankyou Sinbad x

 

[Lara Francis]

That's wonderful news! Best of luck to you and your son and I hope things go amazingly for you both. Hugs ♡

Thankyou 15dec
Hugs to you x

 

[Firecaste]

Good news is welcome to hear. Happy for you! ^^

 

[21Neberg]

I'm so happy to hear that!! That's really all I have to say haha it just makes me happy :)

 

[Thewhowithin69]

Awww. Lara I am over the moon for you!! And don't worry if your son is your reason for living, it's a really decent reason!! I am so grateful my daughter gave me that reason for so many years too....in fact she still does! Obviously you may end up back in a dark place again and maybe you aren't even out of it yet but if you can focus on your boy that's a huge step and maybe once the clouds clear you will find some other reasons too. I am just so glad your son has his mama again!!
And use whatever support you need where you can find it!! I'm sending you another hug since you seem to be enjoying those right now ;) God I miss those days.....lol nothing like a child cuddle to warm the heart!!
I felt the same way when I couldn't get on this site...which was ironic to me since I'm planning to ctb but I felt so much more cut off and alone....it was yucky!! For now I appreciate the few connections I can make....