bear_trapped
taking it one day at a time
- Feb 13, 2020
- 70
i turned 19 today and im honestly surprised i've made it this long. i had always planned to ctb before i turned 18 but i've been trying to be more hopeful for the future so i'm proud of myself for that.
i just feel so lonely and bored all the time. my mom gave me money and took me to get a little cake for myself today after she got off work and i'm really grateful for both of those things, but i just feel really lame compared to other teens that are always going out and doing a bunch of stuff with friends. i spent all day on my phone waiting for my mom to get off just to go to kroger, that was my whole birthday. again i'm happy i got a cake and money, but idk. i realized how friendless i really am after graduating and seeing everyone leave for college. i really need people to hang out with but idk how to meet new people. i'm too shy and my style isn't common at all in my small town. i feel like i'm rotting in my room everyday and i really wanna change that.
all in all, my birthday wasn't bad though. im happy im still here
i just feel so lonely and bored all the time. my mom gave me money and took me to get a little cake for myself today after she got off work and i'm really grateful for both of those things, but i just feel really lame compared to other teens that are always going out and doing a bunch of stuff with friends. i spent all day on my phone waiting for my mom to get off just to go to kroger, that was my whole birthday. again i'm happy i got a cake and money, but idk. i realized how friendless i really am after graduating and seeing everyone leave for college. i really need people to hang out with but idk how to meet new people. i'm too shy and my style isn't common at all in my small town. i feel like i'm rotting in my room everyday and i really wanna change that.
all in all, my birthday wasn't bad though. im happy im still here