Venting My Birthday is tomorrow and I feel miserable about it

[BlueButterfly111]

I hate my Birthday's, they always remind me of how lonely I am and how much my life sucks. Last year my Birthday was particularly horrible because it was just a few months after my boyfriend passed away and I also quit my shitty job that day. My roommate also accused me of stealing money from her when I didn't, (I've never stolen from her or anyone else, lol) and then she later found the money that she lost and apologized about it, lol. I actually dread my Birthdays because people get excited when I tell them it's my Birthday or that my Birthday is coming up, and they ask me what I'm doing and I say nothing. I hope that this will be my last Birthday, 23 years of misery is enough for me! I don't know why I'm still here and I never thought that I would make it this long, or planned to. I always knew my life would probably be miserable when I grow up, but it's even worse than I thought it would be. I know that I'm "attention seeking" by making this post, but sorry I really have no other outlets to talk to besides on this site. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way, it's really sad to me.

I really appreciate all of the kind people that I've interacted with here, thank you for making my Birthday less lonely. I didn't even have an account or the words to express my pain around this time last year on and around the time of my Birthday.

 

[Irisse]

You are not attention seeking, you have a right to vent just as anyone else on this site.
I'm sorry that your last birthday was so awful. I don't like my own birthdays for similar reasons so I sort of understand. I hope that this birthday will be better for you. Happy early birthday! :)

 

[BlueButterfly111]

You are not attention seeking, you have a right to vent just as anyone else on this site.
I'm sorry that your last birthday was so awful. I don't like my own birthdays for similar reasons so I sort of understand. I hope that this birthday will be better for you. Happy early birthday! :)

Thank you so much! I've been called attention seeking for sharing my feelings on websites but I think it's because I'm a woman, idk but I agree with you!!

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate because I hate my B-day, and I'm way older than you, that means I hate it even more haha.
Fortunately, facebook days are gone and only my close family remembers my bday but damn, this surely doesn't suit us.
Yet, this B-Day will be different for you because SS ppl are just lovely and they really get what you are going through.

I'd send u a gift but I'm broke haha.

Take care <3

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah, just had mine end of last month. In "normie" terms, kind of a milestone one, but not to me. Birthday's suck. I can't care about them, anymore. Just another freaking day.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I can relate because I hate my B-day, and I'm way older than you, that means I hate it even more haha.
Fortunately, facebook days are gone and only my close family remembers my bday but damn, this surely doesn't suit us.
Yet, this B-Day will be different for you because SS ppl are just lovely and they really get what you are going through.

I'd send u a gift but I'm broke haha.

Take care <3

Wow, I can relate to you so much! My mom and my one friend and my grandma are literally the only people who remembers my Birthday, or wish me Happy Birthday, it's so lonely. And lol thanks for the offer, me too, I don't even have cake lol! You seem really nice take care as well!

Yeah, just had mine end of last month. In "normie" terms, kind of a milestone one, but not to me. Birthday's suck. I can't care about them, anymore. Just another freaking day.

Yeah, I think at this point I've just accepted my lonely boring life, that's how it always has been so I've just accepted it! Just another day

 

[Firefly.Forest]

BlueButterfly111, I hope your birthday has a few special moments! I also am way older than you.

I can relate to your feelings. Take care

 

[Pluto]

 

[BlueButterfly111]

BlueButterfly111, I hope your birthday has a few special moments! I also am way older than you.

I can relate to your feelings. Take care

Thank you so much, I'm so sorry that you feel the same way! You take care as well!

 

[Mooncry]

I also hate birthdays. It's just a reminder that I lasted another year being in a place I don't want to be. :(

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I also hate birthdays. It's just a reminder that I lasted another year being in a place I don't want to be. :(

Same here, I hate that I made it to this age and I seriously don't want another Birthday after this!