Venting My 16 year old brother committed suicide a month ago

[ShinyScissors]

Tomorrow will mark his one month anniversary for being dead. 06/30/23 5:35 AM. It's really fucking funny because no one has a clue why he did it. They say he acted fine and showed no signs and everyone is distraught

I'm different. I've been to the mental psych 3 times for suicidal ideation and I don't particularly make a lot of effort to hide my feelings. Nobody really cares. I guess humanity is really fucking ignorant. I'm the only one who knows why he did it because I feel the same exact way. Not a day passes to where I don't miss my little brother. I still have to wake up at 7am and work until 11pm at night just to live paycheck to paycheck. I'm tired.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least now he cannot suffer anymore, rest in peace.

 

[Sweet Tart]

I'm so sorry for your loss and the continuing pain of your existence.

Are you planning to commemorate him tomorrow in any way that is meaningful to you?

 

[ShinyScissors]

I'm so sorry for your loss and the continuing pain of your existence.

Are you planning to commemorate him tomorrow in any way that is meaningful to you?

Im not sure, maybe I'll call my sister. I do have to work tomorrow. I've also found it hard to find motivation to do anything like that for him, I want to make a most on social media but it's too hard to think about

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. He's relieved from his suffering! RIP

I hope you can find peace as well!

 

[jessisme]

Tomorrow will mark his one month anniversary for being dead. 06/30/23 5:35 AM. It's really fucking funny because no one has a clue why he did it. They say he acted fine and showed no signs and everyone is distraught

I'm different. I've been to the mental psych 3 times for suicidal ideation and I don't particularly make a lot of effort to hide my feelings. Nobody really cares. I guess humanity is really fucking ignorant. I'm the only one who knows why he did it because I feel the same exact way. Not a day passes to where I don't miss my little brother. I still have to wake up at 7am and work until 11pm at night just to live paycheck to paycheck. I'm tired.

I'm very sorry for your loss. You would think under the circumstances your family and friends would be more understanding of you and your situation and be of more support to you. Your situation also should give them some idea of what might have caused your brother to resort to such measures. I'm sorry that it hasn't. I hope you feel that you have found support here. xo, j

 

[eashanm]

Tomorrow will mark his one month anniversary for being dead. 06/30/23 5:35 AM. It's really fucking funny because no one has a clue why he did it. They say he acted fine and showed no signs and everyone is distraught

I'm different. I've been to the mental psych 3 times for suicidal ideation and I don't particularly make a lot of effort to hide my feelings. Nobody really cares. I guess humanity is really fucking ignorant. I'm the only one who knows why he did it because I feel the same exact way. Not a day passes to where I don't miss my little brother. I still have to wake up at 7am and work until 11pm at night just to live paycheck to paycheck. I'm tired.

Can I know what method he used?

 

[ShinyScissors]

Can I know what method he used?

At an airport he went to the car parking lot and took an elevator to the 6th story and sat himself on the ledge to where he pushed himself off, falling while facing the stars

He was also afraid of heights so he didn't want to be facing the ground. i discovered all this information after my sister went through his discord chats

 

[SMK1444]

Man I feel for you as I have had to go through something similar. Life is so cruel nothing gets better.It's just not fair, at least he's pain free now.

 

[Stormy Raine]

Tomorrow will mark his one month anniversary for being dead. 06/30/23 5:35 AM. It's really fucking funny because no one has a clue why he did it. They say he acted fine and showed no signs and everyone is distraught

I'm different. I've been to the mental psych 3 times for suicidal ideation and I don't particularly make a lot of effort to hide my feelings. Nobody really cares. I guess humanity is really fucking ignorant. I'm the only one who knows why he did it because I feel the same exact way. Not a day passes to where I don't miss my little brother. I still have to wake up at 7am and work until 11pm at night just to live paycheck to paycheck. I'm tired.

I'm so sorry to hear this, I'm sure this is very difficult for you. I understand working paycheck to paycheck and I have 2 degrees! I'm exhausted, I simply want out! I hope you can find some peace in this life, maybe take a vacation day and try to enjoy yourself and visit your brothers site if he was buried and talk to him.

 

[irie]

i'm so sorry you have to go through this, rest in peace to him

 

[stage4johnny]

My condolences. Life can be so bad.