Must CTB but don't want to

[decaying]

Well, the long story would be boring, so instead I'll just say that I have always had mental issues (runs in the family) but since adulthood it's gotten worse. It's to the point where I think about suicide daily. I can't remember the last time I felt like I actually wanted to live my life. I have to kill myself before things get worse, but I don't even have the will to do that much. I hate my life. I need to change.

Is anyone else in this situation? How are you dealing with it?

 

[itsgone2]

Same as you. Feel trapped.

 

[imontheloose]

It's sadly quite common to want to CTB yet feel unable to for whatever reason that may be. I hope you find your peace soon, as I hope for all reading this.

Take a hug!

 

[rs929]

I'm feeling similar. It's like I wanna get better, do stuff to improve my life, but I don't have the motivation or energy, and I know an unlivable life is waiting for me. So I take no action to improve and I don't CTB either