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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
232


I wish i could go back to those times where everything flowed so well.

Spending hours on end, talking about everything and nothing, asking for advice, for comfort. I was happy to provide, always.

I wish i didn't snap, now i'm miserable and sad.

I couldn't find it in someone while i provided it for plenty, or did i ? Maybe i'm just lying to myself.

There's no comfort for me, no asylum, only the end and it's well diserved.
 
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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
232


I wish i had a place i could call home, my own where i can do what i want when i want to. The only thing that kept me going/sane was the screen and the adventures in it, but all good things come to an end right ?

I wish i could go back to that job i didn't like, waking up early in the morning, driving with headlights reflecting in the fog.

I wish i could go back and not loose it, not hurting others and myself.

I wish i could be euphoric again when i saw that notification on Discord beside your name.

There's no way back, i need to drive that road, i need to drive off that cliff.

There's no room left for anything but regrets...
 
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Aknu132

Aknu132

Tenha um bom dia!
Dec 25, 2023
286
 
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witchcraft

witchcraft

it's too painful to live but I'm too afraid to die
Nov 27, 2024
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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
232


I can't believe i was so hopeful a few years ago, just wanted to keep at it despite the hardships and all the pain.

I wanted to experience everything so badly and face life head on after being so scared and being shut in, i found confidence and wanted to move forward.

But look at me now, i had a lot for myself and i found the way to burn it all, hurting others and me in the process.

I betrayed all my principles and my morals, i've failed myself and people that loved me.

I've chosen evil after 25 so years of being a good person, i've been a selfish man and i regret it all.

I diserve no sympathy, affection nor love, i should accept my fate but i would be lying if i said i didn't want any...

It's almost the end and i won't leave anything good behind...do you think you'll remember us ? "Us"? Do you think you'll remember the good and forget the bad ?

I wished it ended under the northern lights of Alaska, it's cringe and ridiculous, but it means something to me, i wish the cold embraced me one last time...
 
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E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
232


This is it, the last time i run away.

My final act of cowardice, almost there.

Funny how ironic it is, if i had ran away from home much earlier in life, maybe i would have grown into a good man ? Wouldn't have wasted my potential and have all this ressentment?

It's too late anyway, i hope it will rain in this desert, when i finally leave for good.
 
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star.trip

star.trip

Experienced
Oct 6, 2024
260


2nd Movement :heart:


3th Movement :heart:


Love Spell. Ritual Fire Dance

 
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brainlessretard

brainlessretard

i wish i could erase only the memories i hate
Dec 19, 2021
29


listened to this when i was a struggling little girl. brings me lots of feelings.
 
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VanillaCake

VanillaCake

Let death be kinder than man
Aug 26, 2021
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Aknu132

Aknu132

Tenha um bom dia!
Dec 25, 2023
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Sakura.

Sakura.

NienawidzÄ™ siebie.
May 1, 2024
257
Hi, @snuffilme! Tomorrow is your birthday! Happy birthday! I hope you feel good and you are happy. :happy:

 
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breachswapper

breachswapper

" i'm done here. "
Sep 24, 2025
30


clicked on this video the other cause the art was cool. COMPLETELY blown away by the sound. i haven't heard music this full of life in a looong time.
 
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