Celerity
shape without form, shade without colour
- Jan 24, 2021
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Drunkenness is one thing, but I feel like suicidal ideation also alters how I perceive movies. Just watched a movie I wouldn't normally enjoy under any normal circumstances and got a lot out of it. This isn't the first time this has happened, and I wonder if other people have had the same experiences.
For one, people wasting their lives away out of fear or committing to some stupid obligation that isn't worth it just really weighs on me when I'm down in the dumps. I see myself in the characters, and I am reminded once again of how much I am wasting my life - and for what? Just so I can blow my brains out with a gun I bought from Value Pawn at the end? With no pain avoided? And no gain? What a fucking waste of a human life!
Some of my favorite movies became so when I watched them drunk and suicidal. These two factors seemed to be necessary ingredients for me understanding the films' main themes.
For one, people wasting their lives away out of fear or committing to some stupid obligation that isn't worth it just really weighs on me when I'm down in the dumps. I see myself in the characters, and I am reminded once again of how much I am wasting my life - and for what? Just so I can blow my brains out with a gun I bought from Value Pawn at the end? With no pain avoided? And no gain? What a fucking waste of a human life!
Some of my favorite movies became so when I watched them drunk and suicidal. These two factors seemed to be necessary ingredients for me understanding the films' main themes.