Same here. Everything that once made me hopeful is gone. I will most likely drop out of medical school because there is no point to it anymore and I never should have tried that to begin with. I've been telling everyone how much this appartment makes me sick and how lonely and uncomfortable I feel in this town. No one listened. Again.
There is nothing in my hometown either except memories and a cruel reminder of the fact that I've lost my youth as well as the fact that none of the people I knew live there anymore. My peers are much more succesful than me. They have support system and social circles and I haven't had that since sixth grade. All I have are incompetent boomer parents who can't understand the fact that my twenties are not the same as their twenties and that their methods don't work for my generation and who didn't teach me shit about the real world.
I might even go this week I no longer care.