lucid
antinatalist specialist
- Jun 29, 2019
- 177
Another rare post from me in the recovery section, whoopee.
Sarcasm aside, recently I seem to have stopped thinking so much about my recent ex, better yet at all. January 9th was a staple of the night we broke up, and that was the night I chose to "celebrate" by drinking (as per usual, not like I have any other great way to cope). I preferably wanted to go to the point of blackout, but thankfully I didn't need to. As I may have mentioned before, I don't cry much, so it was to my relief I burst into tears at one point. It was short, but it was all that was there. Since that night, even the morning after, I haven't once had the thought of "I miss her, I want to be with her again". I can't stress how much weight that's taken off my mind. She was all that was on it lately and it was becoming unbearable. Not to say she herself is a bad person, not at all. But just not having to think of her 24/7 because of my own guilt and loneliness is a real relief.
Sarcasm aside, recently I seem to have stopped thinking so much about my recent ex, better yet at all. January 9th was a staple of the night we broke up, and that was the night I chose to "celebrate" by drinking (as per usual, not like I have any other great way to cope). I preferably wanted to go to the point of blackout, but thankfully I didn't need to. As I may have mentioned before, I don't cry much, so it was to my relief I burst into tears at one point. It was short, but it was all that was there. Since that night, even the morning after, I haven't once had the thought of "I miss her, I want to be with her again". I can't stress how much weight that's taken off my mind. She was all that was on it lately and it was becoming unbearable. Not to say she herself is a bad person, not at all. But just not having to think of her 24/7 because of my own guilt and loneliness is a real relief.