StarryStarry
Cat Lady
- Oct 25, 2021
- 750
I hate the mornings. Just another day for me to be a failure. Sitting in my house without a job, knowing not only do I need to ctb I will HAVE to ctb because of my circumstances. My cat sits by my side constantly as if she knows what our future holds. I dread xmas. Absolutely hate it. My daughter and I used to celebrate xmas together - we would go to the mall and sit on Santa's lap, buy as many candy canes as we could, wear stupid sweaters, decorate the house. Now I hate the thought of it. The hate scares me. What a waste of a life - if someone had reached out to me my story may have had a better ending. Sorry, I digress. Life is what it is - it sucks. Nothing is going to change for me. Time will not heal my wounds. Chris will not come back ... so overwhelmed so sad.