Morbid Fantasy

[Mi Mi]

Online search..for what I can't recall.

But in my city there is a restaurant that you eat in a ski gondola.

Immediately I wondered how high up are you.

I thought how nice if you could eat dinner and then just jump out.

I think like this often since I got out.

I see a high building and wonder how high is it...how to get to the top.

I see a train and wonder how often it runs.

Ever since my plan failed...I failed..I feel so trapped in a world where I don't belong.

Out of all the heartbreaks I've endured.
My father couldn't love me
My mother couldn't love me
My toxic grandmother
My sister thinks im a enemy
I don't exist to my brother
My friends abandoned me
A couple of romantic heartbreaks

None of them hurt more than me not being able to find a way to kill myself.

 

[whywere]

Online search..for what I can't recall.

But in my city there is a restaurant that you eat in a ski gondola.

Immediately I wondered how high up are you.

I thought how nice if you could eat dinner and then just jump out.

I think like this often since I got out.

I see a high building and wonder how high is it...how to get to the top.

I see a train and wonder how often it runs.

Ever since my plan failed...I failed..I feel so trapped in a world where I don't belong.

Out of all the heartbreaks I've endured.
My father couldn't love me
My mother couldn't love me
My toxic grandmother
My sister thinks im a enemy
I don't exist to my brother
My friends abandoned me
A couple of romantic heartbreaks

None of them hurt more than me not being able to find a way to kill myself.

I care about YOU deeply. My "parents" called me "the mistake" and I really know the pain associated with that. BUT you are a loving, caring and vibrant soul, and I just cannot even imagine this site without your fantastic spirit here.

Lots of huge hugs, caring thoughts and the knowledge that you are SO valuable.

Walter

 

[rozeske]

I know it's not a consolation but know you are loved here

 

[Praestat_Mori]

We're here for you!

 

[Mi Mi]

I care about YOU deeply. My "parents" called me "the mistake" and I really know the pain associated with that. BUT you are a loving, caring and vibrant soul, and I just cannot even imagine this site without your fantastic spirit here.

Lots of huge hugs, caring thoughts and the knowledge that you are SO valuable.

Walter

My mom said she wished she would of aborted me.
I wasn't even mad.
She's apologized.
But I so agree with her.
Thankyou for your kindness.

We're here for you!

Thankyou

I know it's not a consolation but know you are loved here

You're so special to me.
I really admire you.
I feel an energy about you that I can't explain

 

[rozeske]

You're so special to me.
I really admire you.
I feel an energy about you that I can't explain

Ohh..this made my day the feeling is mutual luv

 

[FuneralCry]

I also feel trapped in this existence, it's extreme cruelty to me how we cannot just choose to easily die in peace. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I see a high building and wonder how high is it...how to get to the top.

I see a train and wonder how often it runs.

I do the same even though they arent my go to methods I still wonder