mood swings

[KarmicRain]

Today's been a good day. I drank some coffee and was extremely social, acted like an extrovert even. I talked a lot to my classmates, roommates, and friends but like, now that the day's over and im finally alone in my room for the one hour that i got, the low's starting to hit. like I just can't really find it in me to play, read, or watch something.
earlier i wrote like a thousand word essay on why shit sucks and felt pretty satisfied with it. i was so productive but like all that really follows is the void.
but now im just tired. anxious about tmrw even though nothing is happening. i just hate getting out of bed. i'm not comfortable with the future that's coming because im not prepared nor do i have the motivation to do so. i just want to go to bed and be done with it. i don't know why i can't just be happy with what i have. its a solid life with all the basic necessities filled, im not disabled or anything. i just don't want to do anything now or ever.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's understandable just wanting to permanently rest and it does sound really tiring what you have to endure. But anyway, I wish you the best.

 

[Malpercio]

I feel you. I hope you can make a clear minded, determined decision. I'm 29 and I don't know why I'm continuing to torture myself even though I've always said since school years that I don't want anything with my life.