Venting mom’s cancer is back.

[synthcadia]

today before i went out for a walk i wanted to put on sunscreen bc i was worried about getting skin cancer. but my mom thought that i would be fine since i'm walking.

the irony of discussion.

my mom had a PET scan yesterday and got the results today, which showed that she has a cancerous lymph node. it's not bad, like it's everywhere, but it still is back. and i'm scared.

i sort of spiral every time my mom's cancer comes back. bc i'm scared. this time is no exception. i'm scared.

my mom is stressed with stuff regarding my brother on top of everything too which isn't great. and i feel like i'm going to run out of time to get my schedule set. but i'm worried about my mom primarily.

i'm just scared. i thought the last time (last year) was the last time. i guess not.

 

[Monique696]

I wish you lots of strength in these hard times and hope your mom recovers fast and well.

 

[synthcadia]

I wish you lots of strength in these hard times and hope your mom recovers fast and well.

thank u, me too.

i learned that my grandmother also has surgery this week so. that's something.

i'm debating buying sn.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope the best for your mom and that everything goes well. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I send you a BIG

 

[Sakura.]

I am horrified and very sorry about what you wrote. I know how you feel because my mother and my grandmother got cancer at almost the same time. Mom passed away and grandma is still struggling.

I wish I could support you somehow...

 

[FakeSmileGuy]

That's rough man, i wish you luck, and i hope you stay strong for them. I know this opinion might be unwelcome here, but i think you should stay for them. Leaving my family behind is probably the largest barrier between me and a bullet, the guilt of hurting them is horrible for me. I know it's none of my business, but i'd stick around until they're better. I'm sorry this had to happen, good luck synth.

 

[synthcadia]

hiya, sorry for just poofing. haven't been great lately.

both are ok - grandmother recovered well and my mom has radiation, best case scenario.

thank you guys. <3

 

[BardBarrie]

today before i went out for a walk i wanted to put on sunscreen bc i was worried about getting skin cancer. but my mom thought that i would be fine since i'm walking.

the irony of discussion.

my mom had a PET scan yesterday and got the results today, which showed that she has a cancerous lymph node. it's not bad, like it's everywhere, but it still is back. and i'm scared.

i sort of spiral every time my mom's cancer comes back. bc i'm scared. this time is no exception. i'm scared.

my mom is stressed with stuff regarding my brother on top of everything too which isn't great. and i feel like i'm going to run out of time to get my schedule set. but i'm worried about my mom primarily.

i'm just scared. i thought the last time (last year) was the last time. i guess not.

I'm very sorry to hear this.

I'm fortunate enough to have never been in this situation with either parent, but I don't know how I'd cope facing what you're facing.

I feel like I'd want to push for CTB more to escape the heartache, but I wouldn't want to hurt a loved one who is going through Cancer like that.

Horrible situation, you have my sympathy. Let's hope the situation improves for your mother.

 

[synthcadia]

I'm very sorry to hear this.

I'm fortunate enough to have never been in this situation with either parent, but I don't know how I'd cope facing what you're facing.

I feel like I'd want to push for CTB more to escape the heartache, but I wouldn't want to hurt a loved one who is going through Cancer like that.

Horrible situation, you have my sympathy. Let's hope the situation improves for your mother.

dissociation is my best friend lol.

tbh this isn't even that bad in comparison to like 5 years ago when the cancer was stage 3-4 and she was going through chemo and surgery.

thank you very much. <3 i appreciate it.

if i am living for any reason, it's for others. so if i didn't have anyone, i'd ctb. but i'm trying to stay for her and my grandmother and friends.

 

[BardBarrie]

dissociation is my best friend lol.

tbh this isn't even that bad in comparison to like 5 years ago when the cancer was stage 3-4 and she was going through chemo and surgery.

thank you very much. <3 i appreciate it.

if i am living for any reason, it's for others. so if i didn't have anyone, i'd ctb. but i'm trying to stay for her and my grandmother and friends.

I guess in that case, once your loved ones pass on, your watch ends and you can go free.

I hope the remaining time you and your loved ones spend together on this Earth is full of love.

Thank you for sticking around for them.

 

[synthcadia]

I guess in that case, once your loved ones pass on, your watch ends and you can go free.

I hope the remaining time you and your loved ones spend together on this Earth is full of love.

Thank you for sticking around for them.

yeah, it's like that. and thank you. <333 and no need to thank, just basic decency i think.