k!tten2423
An Open Book
- Dec 31, 2022
- 23
Hello. I'm new here. I think the biggest thing on my mind is wanting to CTB but having kids….and I'm sure it has been discussed, but I'd like to put my own out there and see what I get. I have wanted to end it since probably about 6th grade. Been to many many therapists. Was once on suicide watch for a night. And it's like anything I say or do doesn't matter….and now I have two boys. Wonderful boys…yet I still feel this way. Why? I thought maybe after having even just my first I could idk somehow be better…I have lots of help. They're dad is in the picture but we're not living with him and it's kinda rocky….my life isn't horrible. I have an amazing family. Amazing kids. So much support in all I do. Yet I still feel this way…why?