BurningLights
He killed himself with his own mind
- Jul 2, 2018
- 709
Okay, so so far I have tried to od 3 times, obviously they didn't work. First was antidepressants, but not enough of them. Next was benzos and alcohol, but due to my tolerance through addiction, I just blacked for 2 days. Third was with propranolol, I know I fucked that up by not giving enough time after I ate.
I figured that od was out of the question due to failing three times (might as well try something else) so I figured hanging, in some weird fucked up way it would poetic to go the same way as my brother, but truthfully, I don't want to go by hanging, I want to just go to sleep and not wake up.
I have 2 types of antidepressants in my possession, mirtazapine and cymbalta (duloxatine) I only have 10 60mg cym and at the moment 18 mirt. I plan on getting fucking drunk before I do anything, and not eating for at least 24 hours. Would this be enough? Or should I wait for a top up of my mirt? I know it's probably not enough, but maybe the 2 combined will do the job as apposed to just one. Thoughts and ideas?
I figured that od was out of the question due to failing three times (might as well try something else) so I figured hanging, in some weird fucked up way it would poetic to go the same way as my brother, but truthfully, I don't want to go by hanging, I want to just go to sleep and not wake up.
I have 2 types of antidepressants in my possession, mirtazapine and cymbalta (duloxatine) I only have 10 60mg cym and at the moment 18 mirt. I plan on getting fucking drunk before I do anything, and not eating for at least 24 hours. Would this be enough? Or should I wait for a top up of my mirt? I know it's probably not enough, but maybe the 2 combined will do the job as apposed to just one. Thoughts and ideas?