Missing people when I ctb

[Some place nice]

There's this guy I met on a app called vent. He is the only good thing about that app. Its full of a bunch of pro life people. I told that guy once of my plans and ofc he tried to talk me out, he went to a different topic to take my mind off of things. We talked for 3 hours and a few days ago I finally got him to send me and audio of his voice and I fell deeper in love with him. We don't talk a lot, he's very busy. Usually it would be every 8 days we talked but last week we talked around the second day. I counted when he'll text me again and it is on the day that I will be waiting for the bus. Its like morning there when its 4 pm there but, he always texts me after work which is around 2 am for me. And my body has been waking me up at 2 now but I know he wont text. At hurts knowing that he doesn't feel the same way about me tho. It was a nice last conversation tho, I'm happy how it ended. I will miss him so much. He will find the note when I am already in the bus.