BandAddict
Specialist
- Apr 3, 2019
- 338
My mom and sibling left to run errands, and I had a chance to go to a Walgreens nearby and take a vital step in my plan to CTB. I'm almost never home alone. I knew they'd be gone more than long enough for me to do it, but I was so fucking terrified to make the trip. I quickly got dressed and got everything together, walked out, went back inside, walked out again and started speedwalking. The panic grew immediately and I couldn't stop thinking about how my mom said a package was coming and she often calls me when it gets dropped off, and when I started walking along the main road I kept thinking I saw her fucking car. I'm so afraid to leave the house as it is, and all these variables made it even more difficult. I pussied out and walked back home. What the fuck is wrong with me?? I was so close to getting this shit done, and enough time has passed that I know I could have gone there and back by now, but it's too fucking late. Fuck.