Floraknife

Floraknife

Tired
Dec 29, 2018
158
Hey, guys. I ended up failing on the night I planned to ctb. I genuinely didn't think anyone would really care enough to know how things went. Was too drunk to succeed with partial suspension. Things objectively improved since then, I decided to give life another shot. Landed a job, opened up to my fiance about how I've been feeling... It helped, for a while, but I'm only back on here to say proper goodbyes and to give a sincere thank you to everyone I've connected with. My pain is consuming my humanity, and I feel like I'm only becoming a worse, more empty, and more ingenuine person by the day. My goal is to make it to Friday to pay a bill and ctb with full suspension that night. My 1,4b never came. This is all I have to say. I'd like to hear how everyone on here is doing if anyone's online
 
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brighter

brighter

Warlock
Jan 22, 2019
718
Hi, I've never really interacted with you on the forums before and it's kinda sad for me to write this without having known the pleasure of your company.
To avoid failure and possible intervention, I guess what you gotta make sure of is that no one's gonna check up on you and that the method you have for suspension is sturdy and won't leave you in a vegetated state. See wiki on what the different ways you can do it are.

Good luck with whatever you do and I wish peace unto you x
 
Vaughn

Vaughn

Experienced
Feb 21, 2019
227
wow - wishing you success in your goals -
do you have a back up plan in case problems arise ? are you takng sedatives for the suspension ? Alcohol...???
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
3,532
Hi sweetheart, I did always keep hoping you were somehow ok and managed to pull through and that you and your fiancé would be able to be together. I know you've been through so much in your past and I hope things work out for you whichever path you take xxx
 
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