Miserable when I should be happy

[loveechoes]

How is that a week ago I quit my job out of anger, begged for it back… got it back…. It resolves a lot of the issues why I'd want to ctb, but here I am… all I want to do is ctb, I shouldn't live to work, but work is all I have. I hate this world and I hate BPD.

 

[ranaway]

Do you have any hobbies or anything you like to do ? you can choose not to answer if it's too personal.

 

[loveechoes]

Do you have any hobbies or anything you like to do ? you can choose not to answer if it's too personal.

Eat, sleep, work… that's my hobby, keeps me from the darkness of my mind… but I have this place, keeps me reading other people's darkness and out of my own

 

[ranaway]

Eat, sleep, work… that's my hobby, keeps me from the darkness of my mind… but I have this place, keeps me reading other people's darkness and out of my own

Hmm… Have you experimented with any other hobbies? I suggest looking for more hobbies, or at the very least, things that will distract your attention from all the work, thoughts and worries, like watching movies or documentaries, if you like to eat, maybe try some recipe online and create your own recipes/meals ?

 

[loveechoes]

Hmm… Have you experimented with any other hobbies? I suggest looking for more hobbies, or at the very least, things that will distract your attention from all the work, thoughts and worries, like watching movies or documentaries, if you like to eat, maybe try some recipe online and create your own recipes/meals ?

I like to read every one else's dark thoughts, this is my hobby… knowing there are other people out there that that think about misery as much as I do but wish they had the courage to relieve themselves of it… misery is my hobby

 

[ranaway]

I like to read every one else's dark thoughts, this is my hobby… knowing there are other people out there that that think about misery as much as I do but wish they had the courage to relieve themselves of it… misery is my hobby

Well, we're here and listen to your thoughts as well. Give hugs out to you, just know that you're not alone here.
And wish for the best that things will eventually be better. Hope you soon to feel more relief.

 

[loveechoes]

Well, we're here and listen to your thoughts as well. Give hugs out to you, just know that you're not alone here.
And wish for the best that things will eventually be better. Hope you soon to feel more relief.

Relief will come when I find the courage to relieve myself

 

[FuneralCry]

I just believe that in a world as cruel as this there could never be any real relief from suffering, I also despise this world very much. But anyway, best wishes, I know that at least in my case relief could only ever lie in permanent nonexistence.