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Comatose11
Mage
- Jul 26, 2018
- 572
Just a few things on my mind.
One of them is the method. I've been looking into different methods. One of them is a gun. All though I like how it's instant if done right, I know that it is a very messy method. I'm not concerned with having an attractive corpse. More that there isn't brain matter all over the floor. I've thought about both the exit bag and hanging. With the exit bag, I'd prefer to use a mask (one that covers both the nose and mouth), but apparently it's recommended that you don't. So maybe partial suspension hanging will be my method of choice.
The other thing on my mind is I feel guilty for feeling this way. For being suicidal. I don't even have a good reason to be suicidal, many people would kill to have my life, but for some reason, I'm depressed, and I managed to fuck up my future despite having many opportunities to make something of myself. I feel guilty for having depression and fucking up my future. I feel guilty for being suicidal. And sometimes I wish I could die some other way.
One of them is the method. I've been looking into different methods. One of them is a gun. All though I like how it's instant if done right, I know that it is a very messy method. I'm not concerned with having an attractive corpse. More that there isn't brain matter all over the floor. I've thought about both the exit bag and hanging. With the exit bag, I'd prefer to use a mask (one that covers both the nose and mouth), but apparently it's recommended that you don't. So maybe partial suspension hanging will be my method of choice.
The other thing on my mind is I feel guilty for feeling this way. For being suicidal. I don't even have a good reason to be suicidal, many people would kill to have my life, but for some reason, I'm depressed, and I managed to fuck up my future despite having many opportunities to make something of myself. I feel guilty for having depression and fucking up my future. I feel guilty for being suicidal. And sometimes I wish I could die some other way.