funeralcat

funeralcat

Member
Mar 17, 2023
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I fear the future so much I feel like there's endless possibilities for my life to be destroyed.
About the title of this post. I realized I want to kill myself just for my main big problems but also bc of minimum inconveniences like not understandind my class or people ignoring me
 
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TripTheLight

TripTheLight

I guess I tried
Oct 31, 2024
18
I relate to this post very hard. I feel like my anxiety has made me such a mess that any small inconvenience sends me down a spiral and I start planning cbt again. I say something embarrassing? Ctb. Person from an organization messages me saying that there might have been an error in one of the things I was responsible for? Ctb. My neighbors are annoying? Ctb.
 
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timf

Enlightened
Mar 26, 2020
1,198
Your post about big and little things is interesting. A lot of life is about trying to find some ways to have control. Big things are harder to control by an individual. Small things can be harder to control because there are so many of them. It can be helpful to cultivate a few small things you can control and build on that. Anxiety about the future is understandable, but at some point one has to conclude that there is not much we can do about most big things. Consider the people that lived on the island of Krakatoa in 1883. They had no idea that their island was going to blow up. If there is nothing we can do, then perhaps making the best out of each day is the best way to live.

People ignoring you is not always bad. I would prefer to be ignored by those who would otherwise give me trouble. If you keep an eye out for those who can reciprocate kindness, you may find things much better.
 

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