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Remember-Me-Not
I think I'm going to be okay.
- Dec 10, 2019
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When I ctb, I want to minimize the mess I leave behind. And the smell.
I can't imagine someone opening my room door and being hit with the imagery and smell of a dead body. I think there's no need to traumatize someone like that.
I've been trying to brainstorm. For example, getting a large enough plastic bag and sitting in it as I ctb. The method I'm looking at is blood loss, because the idea of fading out is appealing to me. But honestly, unless I could catch the blood in a more neat way, it's going to be messy, so I'm also researching other methods.
But basically, does anyone else have suggestions to minimize mess? I did think about going to a nature-y area, like the mountain or ocean so there would be no body to deal with. But I also don't want to make the people I leave behind not have closure. Even if you leave behind a note, I feel like not having the body gives people the false hope of, 'What if?'
Sorry this is so rambley. I feel shy about posting so I just dump everything all at once. And this is my first time posting, please let me know if I break any forum rules.
I can't imagine someone opening my room door and being hit with the imagery and smell of a dead body. I think there's no need to traumatize someone like that.
I've been trying to brainstorm. For example, getting a large enough plastic bag and sitting in it as I ctb. The method I'm looking at is blood loss, because the idea of fading out is appealing to me. But honestly, unless I could catch the blood in a more neat way, it's going to be messy, so I'm also researching other methods.
But basically, does anyone else have suggestions to minimize mess? I did think about going to a nature-y area, like the mountain or ocean so there would be no body to deal with. But I also don't want to make the people I leave behind not have closure. Even if you leave behind a note, I feel like not having the body gives people the false hope of, 'What if?'
Sorry this is so rambley. I feel shy about posting so I just dump everything all at once. And this is my first time posting, please let me know if I break any forum rules.