Method methods for homeless female

[notpstelar]

I am poor, disabled, and homeless. I cannot drive. Jumping is high risk of exposing a child to death, as homeless families live in this building too. I won't expose a child to that. I need a method that will work in under 8 hours, that is the duration of my partner's work day. I need a method that will leave easy cleanup and a non mangled corpse. I'm not letting him find me disfigured.
The 7eleven down the street has otcs, what combination is best?
Also, I have considered a strange method of going voluntarily missing and see what happens. That way I could set up a payment system so my partner can get my check until I'm declared dead. I want to honestly maximize the money he gets from me while reducing what he has to spend on taking care of the fallout of my death or disappearance. He's the only reason I have to live but I'm barely able to keep going. I love him and he is all I have but I just want it all to be over. I'm tired.
I'm thinking we should be legally married so he can get survivors checks for being widowed. Depends on what state we get married in, but I'm going to pick based on that.
I'm just still planning it out I guess, and I need help to guarantee he gets something out of it.

 

[Unwr!tten]

Do you get government assistance? You could try sleeping pills and drowning or research other methods— if you disappear, you could do hanging.

As a fellow disabled person, I am so sorry life has come to this.

 

[notpstelar]

Do you get government assistance? You could try sleeping pills and drowning or research other methods— if you disappear, you could do hanging.

As a fellow disabled person, I am so sorry life has come to this.

Hanging in the woods has been appealing as god knows how long it'll take to find me. Leave hubby with access to debit card and leave note that implies I'm still alive so the money flows. Survival instinct is the problem. I can't even count on a bear to kill me. Animals tend not to bug me. I have to be the one to get over myself and just do it.
I'm afraid of children seeing my body floating in the wetland buffer by the motel. But if I die by access road, they won't see me.

 

[Zegers]

It's a tough situation, as i was reading it i saw myself in that situation and the only thing i could think of is to jump but maybe fent-OD is another option.

 

[Unwr!tten]

If you're scared of SI, you could do full suspension hanging.