Cheshirecatx
Curiouser and Curiouser
- May 10, 2019
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I didn't really know what forum this went in, so it's here.
(A lot of talk about Mental Health situation) -
I've been under mental health services for just under 6 months, I got sectioned once before on a 136 by police and they know that I'm considered a 'risk'. I had an appointment last week and told them how I took a paracetamol overdose (I know this is unlikely to kill me but I already have a damaged liver) and I didn't want the help and wouldn't go to the doctors, and I stopped my antidepressants. My CPN seemed worried and said I need to go back on them and my other MH issues are ''alot to handle''. Bare in mind, MH wise I suffer from hearing voices, psychotic episodes, dissociation, eating disorder traits, anxiety disorders, increased violent episodes and thoughts, consistent attempts to take my own life and depression (Obviously). I do not have a formal diagnosis of many of the disorders yet as I've only had one assessment for medication. I'm losing two of my friends and recently lost another to mental health issues and ctb. She stated I had capacity around it but before stated about the mental health act, but could they make a judgment now that I don't have capacity?
(Method)-
I've made a plan to obtain 30 ectasy/mdma or relative drug, to go to my local bridge which is around 120ft high over concrete and a river, and to also tie a noose and try all 3 methods at once. If one doesn't work, another definitely would. The force alone would end it. They don't know this, but I worry they might, I've been given two appointments this week, one with a specialty doctor and another with my CPN. I'm worried they're going to try and section me, would this be likely given the issues? I'm losing my job because I seem too unstable and isolated and my mental health is apparently a concern. I have nothing left to stay for. If this is likely to happen, I need to act on CTB earlier than planned. I cannot end up in a psych ward; when I got sectioned it was horrendous, I started talking to myself and the walls, seeing bugs, refused to eat and drink, bashed my head and failed at ligaturing, I've been set on CTB for months, I've been researching and attempting methods but these seem the most reliable.
Suggestions/comments on my method? I can't get this to go wrong. I can easily get the resources. I scouted out the area and it's quiet at night. If I do get sectioned, what methods could I use inside....
(Not a goodbye post, and not a definite thing, just considering) - Chesh.
(A lot of talk about Mental Health situation) -
I've been under mental health services for just under 6 months, I got sectioned once before on a 136 by police and they know that I'm considered a 'risk'. I had an appointment last week and told them how I took a paracetamol overdose (I know this is unlikely to kill me but I already have a damaged liver) and I didn't want the help and wouldn't go to the doctors, and I stopped my antidepressants. My CPN seemed worried and said I need to go back on them and my other MH issues are ''alot to handle''. Bare in mind, MH wise I suffer from hearing voices, psychotic episodes, dissociation, eating disorder traits, anxiety disorders, increased violent episodes and thoughts, consistent attempts to take my own life and depression (Obviously). I do not have a formal diagnosis of many of the disorders yet as I've only had one assessment for medication. I'm losing two of my friends and recently lost another to mental health issues and ctb. She stated I had capacity around it but before stated about the mental health act, but could they make a judgment now that I don't have capacity?
(Method)-
I've made a plan to obtain 30 ectasy/mdma or relative drug, to go to my local bridge which is around 120ft high over concrete and a river, and to also tie a noose and try all 3 methods at once. If one doesn't work, another definitely would. The force alone would end it. They don't know this, but I worry they might, I've been given two appointments this week, one with a specialty doctor and another with my CPN. I'm worried they're going to try and section me, would this be likely given the issues? I'm losing my job because I seem too unstable and isolated and my mental health is apparently a concern. I have nothing left to stay for. If this is likely to happen, I need to act on CTB earlier than planned. I cannot end up in a psych ward; when I got sectioned it was horrendous, I started talking to myself and the walls, seeing bugs, refused to eat and drink, bashed my head and failed at ligaturing, I've been set on CTB for months, I've been researching and attempting methods but these seem the most reliable.
Suggestions/comments on my method? I can't get this to go wrong. I can easily get the resources. I scouted out the area and it's quiet at night. If I do get sectioned, what methods could I use inside....
(Not a goodbye post, and not a definite thing, just considering) - Chesh.
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